Togo

Yes random title . Felt productive today. Got some things done to the point that the list of things for the day was complete. Even got to play with a dog. I like dogs, specially cute soft haired fun loving playful ones. Brutus, like a cool terrier puppy.

Thank God for animals, they are an amazing creation.
What else, seems like when it rains it pours. Struggled today with hm, conversations. Seems like all the time people want to innuendo and stuff. Hard to even decipher if a comment was serious or had hidden meanings.
Very hard, but I think I prayed 80% of the day.
I just have to believe there is a purpose. There seems to be some time of the day I just want to give up. I have to believe I'm not the one. When looking at people it just seems they are having fun and doing all these things.
Not a day goes by where I'm not being corrected for one thing or another. To the point of just wanting to walk away.
Glad I can write, cause in writing , instead of letting it all build up like before, it can all just drain out and many things happen:
1. It relieves pressure
2. Can go over and evaluate next to he Word how wrong or how to adjust whatever way I have or need to react. If someone else reads it they can help also by telling me how what I wrote or acted came off as, since I know how I mean it , but it doesnt come off as such lots of times .

Oops off topic. Well I lost the thread of what I was saying, guess just finish with this :
I have to work on this , since somewhere I got myself hoodwinked ; here goes :
Psalm 73:25-26

Whom have I in heaven but you?
   And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
   but God is the strength of my heart
   and my portion forever.

Teach me oh God what it means, I think you are trying but this stubborn mule aka me, is not getting it . Please Holy One, soften the hearts and make a miracle. Find nephew a heart, that loss turns to joy and my weakness to my destruction and Your building. Heal her, protect them, I'm so scared and you know how weak. To Your glory and honor , cause that is what it's supposed to be (my flesh is burning, it doesn't want that;stupid selfish flesh) . Thanks for listening, sorry I keep messing up.