"No I don't like or agree with many things He expects me to be obedient to like perseverance,
trust w/o seeing anything in return but I am still called to be obedient and that is what I plan to be
like it or not."
Ok, sounds weird, so here is the context " I have been arguing, talking etc, to one about God and His promises and so forth, that double mindedness and belief. I kknow what God says, yet I have my own thoughts and so , what is the deal. Well here is an answer when I had gotten out of hand in my explanations and really, am wrong. He= God in the paragraph.
Why do I bring this up? hmmm.......well, this is a very direct paragraph. I have to do things I do not like. This relates to people and God. God, I don't like all these things you say to do, turn the other cheek, quick to listen and slow to speak and slow to get angry, to put others (yeah dan, even those you don't like,) ahead and above you, to keep your commitments, to persevere even if you are getting beat up everyday, if you fall on your face a kajillion times, I DONT want to FALL DOWN, :( It sounds negative or like I'm being a "downer" . No, I'm not meaning it this way Dan, I mean it that, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. Peter had that issue when God was getting him to go to see Cornelius ("unclean" creatures on a sheet....Acts 10:9-16), Jesus even had a grand fear, when in the Garden of Gethsemane, (“My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”" Matthew 26: 39 , 42 He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”)
I have to become again or moreso, one who has that mentality, when it comes to what God says to be and do. Have to more so, come to the conclusion, Dan, it doesn't matter if you agree or not what God wants, you have to do it. You gave your life to Him, that means, you gave up or well, just gave Him the control or maybe better, instead of now your are "single" you put yourself into a relationship(marriage?) with Him where He is over you, except here, though you don't agree or think He is too harsh or don't like it all the time, or even feel loved or see it, He knows what is best, He Loves you and wants the best fr you. In this life, we do not for ourselves or others. Yet we try.
Arg, I really hope this makes sense. Arg, Oh, God, I don't know if it made sense, pleasemake it so. I'm bad with these words, please oh please make it work to Your Glory! Help TWOMH and the family, Help Phoenix and bring my sisters to you and their families. I beg for a miracle, for reconciliation on so many relationships. Truly help me to love in word and deeds. Help us to lead others o you. That our lives are fragrant offerings to you, mine hasnt and for that I ask and beg for your mercy and forgiveness. AH, why do You put up with us?? Thank You.
trust w/o seeing anything in return but I am still called to be obedient and that is what I plan to be
like it or not."
Ok, sounds weird, so here is the context " I have been arguing, talking etc, to one about God and His promises and so forth, that double mindedness and belief. I kknow what God says, yet I have my own thoughts and so , what is the deal. Well here is an answer when I had gotten out of hand in my explanations and really, am wrong. He= God in the paragraph.
Why do I bring this up? hmmm.......well, this is a very direct paragraph. I have to do things I do not like. This relates to people and God. God, I don't like all these things you say to do, turn the other cheek, quick to listen and slow to speak and slow to get angry, to put others (yeah dan, even those you don't like,) ahead and above you, to keep your commitments, to persevere even if you are getting beat up everyday, if you fall on your face a kajillion times, I DONT want to FALL DOWN, :( It sounds negative or like I'm being a "downer" . No, I'm not meaning it this way Dan, I mean it that, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. Peter had that issue when God was getting him to go to see Cornelius ("unclean" creatures on a sheet....Acts 10:9-16), Jesus even had a grand fear, when in the Garden of Gethsemane, (“My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”" Matthew 26: 39 , 42 He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”)
I have to become again or moreso, one who has that mentality, when it comes to what God says to be and do. Have to more so, come to the conclusion, Dan, it doesn't matter if you agree or not what God wants, you have to do it. You gave your life to Him, that means, you gave up or well, just gave Him the control or maybe better, instead of now your are "single" you put yourself into a relationship(marriage?) with Him where He is over you, except here, though you don't agree or think He is too harsh or don't like it all the time, or even feel loved or see it, He knows what is best, He Loves you and wants the best fr you. In this life, we do not for ourselves or others. Yet we try.
Arg, I really hope this makes sense. Arg, Oh, God, I don't know if it made sense, pleasemake it so. I'm bad with these words, please oh please make it work to Your Glory! Help TWOMH and the family, Help Phoenix and bring my sisters to you and their families. I beg for a miracle, for reconciliation on so many relationships. Truly help me to love in word and deeds. Help us to lead others o you. That our lives are fragrant offerings to you, mine hasnt and for that I ask and beg for your mercy and forgiveness. AH, why do You put up with us?? Thank You.
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