OOOOH LA

You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.

Isaiah 26:3 NIV

^{Matthew 6:24
“No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.}

¹¹³ I hate double-minded people,
   but I love your law. Psalm 111:113

⁶ But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ⁷ That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.⁸ Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. James 1:6-8

⁸ Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8

Oh, joy, what is wrong with me? Am I gonna serve and believe or am I gonna go with the flow? Who do I serve? AM I consistent in it? Dan what is the deal?!  Who matters most? others or God? Why is it so hard? All these years and you still struggle with that. 

What does it mean to be double-minded? Hm Paul writes about having to wars within oneself, wanting to do good and wanting to sin, this is a division of the heart I presume. For a double minded person is well, um, I'm thinking of chameleons, they change colors, not sticking to one color or another, but when cornered,scared, or just regularly, it changes color to blend in. 

Now where do I come in? Am I a chameleon? Am I double minded? If so, that has got to change. If not, then why do I doubt? 

DO I sway with everything or do i actually stand up for what God says? 

This past few days, no, I have to be honest, I didn't stand up for right, there is no excuse, there never is . I hate that, think I'm doing right, but then someone just slaps me in the face (a saying, not a physical act) and I have to not, change per say, but evaluate or go back and remember or learn or be reminded of what God says to believe and do. 

Hm, double minded Dan, there are a lot of people who just say "I'm growing" or " I don't believe this anymore" or some other reason to change and adapt things to what they want. 

That is wrong. I'm wrong when I do this. How many times do I say "well it's only bad if you're caught" or letting moral relativism or liberalism creep in, with the thought of " oh, I won't do this again, this or that needs to 'change' and be updated to make sense" . Too many. 

So what can I do? Can't live in a hole, though I have tried, can't just "stay within myself".  Hm, basics. Wake up, pray, read, take the junk out in music, and movies. As was done 2 times, walk out of the movie theater for those dumb movies. Those were the 2 proudest moments of ever watching in a theater, You, Me and Dupree and Don't mess with the Zohan, Her and I, we got up and left. Hm, thank you woman of my heart for being there and helping me get up. Maybe we helped each other. Thank You God for that, for strength to do that to both. 

Hm, you don't realize what you haven't been doing til you see how far you fall. Dang, sometimes it seems like all I'm doing is one big prayer, I think people think I'm crazy cause I move my mouth absently.  The music, well, hm, in my library, there are way too many songs that I like a lot (beat, how it sounds) but it has cussing or talking about doing some wrong things, so gotta kick them out. there is way too many songs. Back to writing, and studying, seems too easy to just read a verse and say " I put my Time in for the day" or "that was a good verse" , no it has to be also continual til I can speak it as fluently as English. 

Ah, ok, thinking I'm going on and on Dan, so time to get away for a few. work on the basics.....

God be with us and the families. those in Tokyo, and Phoenix, get him a heart please. Protect TWOMH and family, Help please too many distractions and advice that is conflicting, help us to revert to the Word. Please.