Hope for tomorrow

What do we do when we don't get the answer we want? Well, it depends on how badly I want "my answer" . I don't understand God , and rightly so.

Deuteronomy 29:29 (NIV)
 29 The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.

What does that mean? Means I don;t know everything. I hate that. Why? Cause the work I have done and have been told over and over again is "on a need to know basis". I have hated having to be vague in telling her and others what I have done or not done or do and not do. 

Yet this is how it is. I don't understand why some things happen and why God says somethings that He says. The point is, the answer is not what I want to hear. 

Isaiah 40: 28

28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

 I don't understand GOD! I don't! WHY?! Why do you say some of the things you say?! Why does it feel at times specially now that I'm just being buried deeper and deeper underfoot, as if you are not listening or the plight is not worthy of answer? 

NO, it is not that, no,m it is that I want one answer and that answer is not what is given. My heart, soul, all of it longs for the answer I want, yet it keeps coming back negative, no, not negative, but that which I don't want. 

That is why it says : Romans 1:17 For in the gospel the righteousness of God is revealed—a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: “The righteous will live by faith.”

Am I living by faith? Can I ? Is this faith in God or is it a faith as the world wants, where it is really in oneself, but has "moral basis" to it, a shadow of true faith. 

Is it a selfish faith? Alas, the depths of sin in this world has made it so dirty.

Joshua 24:15
But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”

This is not a verse that says it will be easy or we won't mess up, heck, following is not a "now I'm perfect person" nope, it's I'm a messed up person and I need help and the one who helps me makes me perfect leads me to perfection through trials and good times, and all in between. 

There is hope, I know this is somewhat down sounding, but the hope is not in this world, it is something I do not understand but i have to believe in GOD not men in. 

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Romans 8:24
For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?

Please help me in hope, not in this life, but set hope on who is unseen, You. 

I still always ask for a miracle with her. I love her with all I got.  Your will be done. Help me accept the answers you have given me. Help Phoenix get a heart. Those Hit by the tsunami and the repercussions, help. Help ! Need Help ! In Your son I ask, Amen.