Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Hmhm hummity hm hm
Well apparently I havE been posting on someone else's blog. I send verses from my phone and it says it posts. Hm got on a real computer and it doesnt show. Oops ;) . Well learn one thing everyday I guess. Hm very weird day Dan. The weather, people , all this other stuff . Hm , what is going on ? Least I still live, can move, have ability to have pain and love. Coulda been a worse day, coulda had bad news, hurt myself worse than already so , etc. Praise God for it not being worse , in fact it was a fun learning day. Well for me at least. Have to look at the brightened.
Thank you God for living. Sorry for my failures. Protect her and guide her. Heal us , reconcile please. Mercy You give and I'm sorry I take it for granted.
I'm sorry . Help us please.
Peace to all, Dan , have to believe and trust . It is so hard at times.
Thank you God for living. Sorry for my failures. Protect her and guide her. Heal us , reconcile please. Mercy You give and I'm sorry I take it for granted.
I'm sorry . Help us please.
Peace to all, Dan , have to believe and trust . It is so hard at times.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Hm, what does this mean?
"No I don't like or agree with many things He expects me to be obedient to like perseverance,
trust w/o seeing anything in return but I am still called to be obedient and that is what I plan to be
like it or not."
Ok, sounds weird, so here is the context " I have been arguing, talking etc, to one about God and His promises and so forth, that double mindedness and belief. I kknow what God says, yet I have my own thoughts and so , what is the deal. Well here is an answer when I had gotten out of hand in my explanations and really, am wrong. He= God in the paragraph.
Why do I bring this up? hmmm.......well, this is a very direct paragraph. I have to do things I do not like. This relates to people and God. God, I don't like all these things you say to do, turn the other cheek, quick to listen and slow to speak and slow to get angry, to put others (yeah dan, even those you don't like,) ahead and above you, to keep your commitments, to persevere even if you are getting beat up everyday, if you fall on your face a kajillion times, I DONT want to FALL DOWN, :( It sounds negative or like I'm being a "downer" . No, I'm not meaning it this way Dan, I mean it that, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. Peter had that issue when God was getting him to go to see Cornelius ("unclean" creatures on a sheet....Acts 10:9-16), Jesus even had a grand fear, when in the Garden of Gethsemane, (“My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”" Matthew 26: 39 , 42 He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”)
I have to become again or moreso, one who has that mentality, when it comes to what God says to be and do. Have to more so, come to the conclusion, Dan, it doesn't matter if you agree or not what God wants, you have to do it. You gave your life to Him, that means, you gave up or well, just gave Him the control or maybe better, instead of now your are "single" you put yourself into a relationship(marriage?) with Him where He is over you, except here, though you don't agree or think He is too harsh or don't like it all the time, or even feel loved or see it, He knows what is best, He Loves you and wants the best fr you. In this life, we do not for ourselves or others. Yet we try.
Arg, I really hope this makes sense. Arg, Oh, God, I don't know if it made sense, pleasemake it so. I'm bad with these words, please oh please make it work to Your Glory! Help TWOMH and the family, Help Phoenix and bring my sisters to you and their families. I beg for a miracle, for reconciliation on so many relationships. Truly help me to love in word and deeds. Help us to lead others o you. That our lives are fragrant offerings to you, mine hasnt and for that I ask and beg for your mercy and forgiveness. AH, why do You put up with us?? Thank You.
trust w/o seeing anything in return but I am still called to be obedient and that is what I plan to be
like it or not."
Ok, sounds weird, so here is the context " I have been arguing, talking etc, to one about God and His promises and so forth, that double mindedness and belief. I kknow what God says, yet I have my own thoughts and so , what is the deal. Well here is an answer when I had gotten out of hand in my explanations and really, am wrong. He= God in the paragraph.
Why do I bring this up? hmmm.......well, this is a very direct paragraph. I have to do things I do not like. This relates to people and God. God, I don't like all these things you say to do, turn the other cheek, quick to listen and slow to speak and slow to get angry, to put others (yeah dan, even those you don't like,) ahead and above you, to keep your commitments, to persevere even if you are getting beat up everyday, if you fall on your face a kajillion times, I DONT want to FALL DOWN, :( It sounds negative or like I'm being a "downer" . No, I'm not meaning it this way Dan, I mean it that, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. Peter had that issue when God was getting him to go to see Cornelius ("unclean" creatures on a sheet....Acts 10:9-16), Jesus even had a grand fear, when in the Garden of Gethsemane, (“My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”" Matthew 26: 39 , 42 He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”)
I have to become again or moreso, one who has that mentality, when it comes to what God says to be and do. Have to more so, come to the conclusion, Dan, it doesn't matter if you agree or not what God wants, you have to do it. You gave your life to Him, that means, you gave up or well, just gave Him the control or maybe better, instead of now your are "single" you put yourself into a relationship(marriage?) with Him where He is over you, except here, though you don't agree or think He is too harsh or don't like it all the time, or even feel loved or see it, He knows what is best, He Loves you and wants the best fr you. In this life, we do not for ourselves or others. Yet we try.
Arg, I really hope this makes sense. Arg, Oh, God, I don't know if it made sense, pleasemake it so. I'm bad with these words, please oh please make it work to Your Glory! Help TWOMH and the family, Help Phoenix and bring my sisters to you and their families. I beg for a miracle, for reconciliation on so many relationships. Truly help me to love in word and deeds. Help us to lead others o you. That our lives are fragrant offerings to you, mine hasnt and for that I ask and beg for your mercy and forgiveness. AH, why do You put up with us?? Thank You.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Word Rebuke
Another letter, written to me. Not harsh, yet very effective.
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(Dan) God has given us ALL the tools to do what is right and righteous therefore when we
sin it is a choice we make for ourselves.
"His divine power has given us EVERYTHING we need for LIFE and GODLINESS through our knowledge of
Him who called us by His own glory and goodness. Through these He has given us His very great and
precious PROMISES; so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and ESCAPE the
CORRUPTION in the world caused by EVIL DESIRES." 2 Peter 1:3-4
He is there to help you but you doubt every step of the way.
What you did was wrong and you need to check your faith and truly question whether Jesus is Lord and
Saviour of your life or just Saviour. If He is only Saviour than someone else is lord which is why you have
no power to overcome. You say He is truth and His Word is truth well then why do you continue to
doubt Him and constantly blame Him. When you blame someone you take the blame of the real issue
and it makes it easier to sin because Satan makes you feel and think you have a right to feel or do
what you want or desire to do. Just remember that the more we sin the easier it becomes to continue
to sin.
"Be serious and keep watch; the Evil One, who is against you, goes about like a lion with open
mouth in search of food; 9 Do not give way to him but be strong in your faith, in the knowledge
that your brothers who are in the world undergo the same troubles." 1 Peter 5:8-9
(Dan) your negative thinking doesn't come from God it is satan's kind of thinking. You can't be
different than all the other Christians who are going thru much more than you and they are surviving
because they relly in His promises that He will NOT give them more than they can handle and He will
take revenge on those who hurt us but not at our time but His.
"How much less, then, will He listen when you say that you do not see Him; that your cause is before Him,
and you must wait for Him, and further, that His anger never punishes and He does not take the least notice
of wickedness. And Job's mouth is open wide to give out what is of no profit, increasing words without knowledge."
Job 35:14-16
(Dan), "So do not give up your hope which will be greatly rewarded." Hebrews 10:35
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Well, that is the letter, context is within sins of life, there is always a choice . There is always hope, yet it stuck me that the issue wasn't who is the Saviour, it is who rules you, Dan? What is your goal? Is it in the now or someone? If so, that is just wrong. Hm, it is. Why can't you not forgive or are prideful or selfish or angry or whatever? Because of unrighteousness, because things are not going the way you want or you already have "the plan" " the reasons" and they are your own , Dan, not God's. How can one lead another to the truth and strength when they themselves are not going that way or more precisely, they are holding on to what they want? This produces not rooted souls, but those who are, in the parable of the sower, get the seed but life, own desires, root not wholly or fully relying in the Word(the seed) all that lead them off the path God has, and well, away from Him.
This is what leads to liberalism :
and moral relativism:
Moral relativism is the position that moral propositions do not reflect absolute or universal truths. It not only holds that ethical judgments emerge from social customs and personal preferences, but also that theresingle standard by which to assess an ethical proposition's truth. Many relativists see moral values as applicable only within certain cultural boundaries. Some would even suggest that one person's ethical judgments or acts cannot be judged by another, though most relativists propound a more limited version of the theory.
I would argue against, no, actually I can't argue, God says there is right and there is wrong. That there is what He says and what others say. Heck, I'm guilty of doing this in more than one scenario! No, this isn't when I mess up, this is really, when people say "OH, I had an epiphany, God wants this (when really it is contradictory to what God says and/ or taken out of context)" or, one which was brought up, recently of taking authority out of God's hands and putting it in our own unbalanced, weak hands .
Ok, well I think I may be running out on a different subject. So, time to go and recollect again.
Hope this makes sense, this is very prevalent things, I mean, it truly is a killer of people, thank God for those who do not use their words, then God's, but use God's words, and let that convict others. I wish i could do that, I mean I want to. I'm unstable otherwise, heck everyone is unstable otherwise.
God be wit us and forgive us for this. Be with the WOMH, and help her family. Guide her and us in the truth. Thank you fo rthe sunshine, wish I didn't mess up so many chances, but thanks for forgiveness and not holding sins against us, I mean, I'm struggling with that, and respecting you. Be with us.
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(Dan) God has given us ALL the tools to do what is right and righteous therefore when we
sin it is a choice we make for ourselves.
"His divine power has given us EVERYTHING we need for LIFE and GODLINESS through our knowledge of
Him who called us by His own glory and goodness. Through these He has given us His very great and
precious PROMISES; so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and ESCAPE the
CORRUPTION in the world caused by EVIL DESIRES." 2 Peter 1:3-4
He is there to help you but you doubt every step of the way.
What you did was wrong and you need to check your faith and truly question whether Jesus is Lord and
Saviour of your life or just Saviour. If He is only Saviour than someone else is lord which is why you have
no power to overcome. You say He is truth and His Word is truth well then why do you continue to
doubt Him and constantly blame Him. When you blame someone you take the blame of the real issue
and it makes it easier to sin because Satan makes you feel and think you have a right to feel or do
what you want or desire to do. Just remember that the more we sin the easier it becomes to continue
to sin.
"Be serious and keep watch; the Evil One, who is against you, goes about like a lion with open
mouth in search of food; 9 Do not give way to him but be strong in your faith, in the knowledge
that your brothers who are in the world undergo the same troubles." 1 Peter 5:8-9
(Dan) your negative thinking doesn't come from God it is satan's kind of thinking. You can't be
different than all the other Christians who are going thru much more than you and they are surviving
because they relly in His promises that He will NOT give them more than they can handle and He will
take revenge on those who hurt us but not at our time but His.
"How much less, then, will He listen when you say that you do not see Him; that your cause is before Him,
and you must wait for Him, and further, that His anger never punishes and He does not take the least notice
of wickedness. And Job's mouth is open wide to give out what is of no profit, increasing words without knowledge."
Job 35:14-16
(Dan), "So do not give up your hope which will be greatly rewarded." Hebrews 10:35
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Well, that is the letter, context is within sins of life, there is always a choice . There is always hope, yet it stuck me that the issue wasn't who is the Saviour, it is who rules you, Dan? What is your goal? Is it in the now or someone? If so, that is just wrong. Hm, it is. Why can't you not forgive or are prideful or selfish or angry or whatever? Because of unrighteousness, because things are not going the way you want or you already have "the plan" " the reasons" and they are your own , Dan, not God's. How can one lead another to the truth and strength when they themselves are not going that way or more precisely, they are holding on to what they want? This produces not rooted souls, but those who are, in the parable of the sower, get the seed but life, own desires, root not wholly or fully relying in the Word(the seed) all that lead them off the path God has, and well, away from Him.
This is what leads to liberalism :
lib·er·al·ism
1.
the quality or state of being liberal, as in behavior or attitude.
4.a movement in modern Protestantism that emphasizes freedom from tradition and authority, the adjustment of religious beliefs to scientific conceptions, and the development of spiritual capacities.
and moral relativism:
Moral relativism is the position that moral propositions do not reflect absolute or universal truths. It not only holds that ethical judgments emerge from social customs and personal preferences, but also that theresingle standard by which to assess an ethical proposition's truth. Many relativists see moral values as applicable only within certain cultural boundaries. Some would even suggest that one person's ethical judgments or acts cannot be judged by another, though most relativists propound a more limited version of the theory.
I would argue against, no, actually I can't argue, God says there is right and there is wrong. That there is what He says and what others say. Heck, I'm guilty of doing this in more than one scenario! No, this isn't when I mess up, this is really, when people say "OH, I had an epiphany, God wants this (when really it is contradictory to what God says and/ or taken out of context)" or, one which was brought up, recently of taking authority out of God's hands and putting it in our own unbalanced, weak hands .
Ok, well I think I may be running out on a different subject. So, time to go and recollect again.
Hope this makes sense, this is very prevalent things, I mean, it truly is a killer of people, thank God for those who do not use their words, then God's, but use God's words, and let that convict others. I wish i could do that, I mean I want to. I'm unstable otherwise, heck everyone is unstable otherwise.
God be wit us and forgive us for this. Be with the WOMH, and help her family. Guide her and us in the truth. Thank you fo rthe sunshine, wish I didn't mess up so many chances, but thanks for forgiveness and not holding sins against us, I mean, I'm struggling with that, and respecting you. Be with us.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
OOOOH LA
You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
Isaiah 26:3 NIV
Matthew 6:24
“No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.
“No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.
113 I hate double-minded people,
but I love your law. Psalm 111:113
but I love your law. Psalm 111:113
6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. James 1:6-8
8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8
Oh, joy, what is wrong with me? Am I gonna serve and believe or am I gonna go with the flow? Who do I serve? AM I consistent in it? Dan what is the deal?! Who matters most? others or God? Why is it so hard? All these years and you still struggle with that.
What does it mean to be double-minded? Hm Paul writes about having to wars within oneself, wanting to do good and wanting to sin, this is a division of the heart I presume. For a double minded person is well, um, I'm thinking of chameleons, they change colors, not sticking to one color or another, but when cornered,scared, or just regularly, it changes color to blend in.
Now where do I come in? Am I a chameleon? Am I double minded? If so, that has got to change. If not, then why do I doubt?
DO I sway with everything or do i actually stand up for what God says?
This past few days, no, I have to be honest, I didn't stand up for right, there is no excuse, there never is . I hate that, think I'm doing right, but then someone just slaps me in the face (a saying, not a physical act) and I have to not, change per say, but evaluate or go back and remember or learn or be reminded of what God says to believe and do.
Hm, double minded Dan, there are a lot of people who just say "I'm growing" or " I don't believe this anymore" or some other reason to change and adapt things to what they want.
That is wrong. I'm wrong when I do this. How many times do I say "well it's only bad if you're caught" or letting moral relativism or liberalism creep in, with the thought of " oh, I won't do this again, this or that needs to 'change' and be updated to make sense" . Too many.
So what can I do? Can't live in a hole, though I have tried, can't just "stay within myself". Hm, basics. Wake up, pray, read, take the junk out in music, and movies. As was done 2 times, walk out of the movie theater for those dumb movies. Those were the 2 proudest moments of ever watching in a theater, You, Me and Dupree and Don't mess with the Zohan, Her and I, we got up and left. Hm, thank you woman of my heart for being there and helping me get up. Maybe we helped each other. Thank You God for that, for strength to do that to both.
Hm, you don't realize what you haven't been doing til you see how far you fall. Dang, sometimes it seems like all I'm doing is one big prayer, I think people think I'm crazy cause I move my mouth absently. The music, well, hm, in my library, there are way too many songs that I like a lot (beat, how it sounds) but it has cussing or talking about doing some wrong things, so gotta kick them out. there is way too many songs. Back to writing, and studying, seems too easy to just read a verse and say " I put my Time in for the day" or "that was a good verse" , no it has to be also continual til I can speak it as fluently as English.
Ah, ok, thinking I'm going on and on Dan, so time to get away for a few. work on the basics.....
God be with us and the families. those in Tokyo, and Phoenix, get him a heart please. Protect TWOMH and family, Help please too many distractions and advice that is conflicting, help us to revert to the Word. Please.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Third point?
Ok, last point about stuff I carry , Dan.
3. over time, this build up becomes too much and the it seems you don't even know what you are paying for.
How much junk is carried, looking at storage places, there is so much stuff people store and then when we look at it, well, what the heck is this from who knows when?
For example, when i worked while i was in high school, I had jobs where I helped pack or clean out someone's house. The things we have! some people have to buy houses not because they need 5 rooms, but they have so much stuff they need to put it there!
Things I have found, for instance one client had a room of just cassette tapes, I mean hundreds and hundreds, could have saved lots of space and cleanliness and money (for less storage space) . What was the client paying for? Not a place to live, 'cause the things kept were overrunning the place! :(
But that is what we / I do, did , have done. The things of the past, stuff just sitting there, gathering dust and slowly it grows, more and more.
It diseases and sickens people before they realize it.
This client, well, lets just say the place was a mess! The client was so used to having all this baggage and just it overwhelming that by the time it was even fractionally clean, there was a great change in the client. Health wise, better, the space created (or found) was great! it was liek a whole new place ! sorta, this was just with a few visits.
So, what's the point? Point is, these things (anger, pride, selfishness, hate, unforgiveness, fear, etc.) these things , hidden, or stored or whatever it is , held..... it's gonna kill us, who we were meant to be, what we were meant to do. The payment for this, is disease of the heart, payment of lost things, people, ability to do things, time. The Bible says:
James 4:14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
I have to , at the least, I just gotta stop holding grudges, stop being pessimistic, what is to gain by hurting one to hurt them? What do I gain by just looking out for myself? What is gained by carrying this burden and adding to it all the time, can I fix it ? Does running away or hiding it help ? NO.
If a person were to get an injury say stabbed or even cut, doe s a bandaid fix it? No, God fixes it and that is not by covering it up onlly and hiding it. Doing that invites infection, not healing, making things worse.
How many years have I been in medical field and seen people who just ignore injuries? Yet I do not realize that is how our minds and souls do it. i can't fix them, I can help but even then i had help. SO it is here, i don't fix nothing, God does it.
Matthew 19:26
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
3. over time, this build up becomes too much and the it seems you don't even know what you are paying for.
How much junk is carried, looking at storage places, there is so much stuff people store and then when we look at it, well, what the heck is this from who knows when?
For example, when i worked while i was in high school, I had jobs where I helped pack or clean out someone's house. The things we have! some people have to buy houses not because they need 5 rooms, but they have so much stuff they need to put it there!
Things I have found, for instance one client had a room of just cassette tapes, I mean hundreds and hundreds, could have saved lots of space and cleanliness and money (for less storage space) . What was the client paying for? Not a place to live, 'cause the things kept were overrunning the place! :(
But that is what we / I do, did , have done. The things of the past, stuff just sitting there, gathering dust and slowly it grows, more and more.
It diseases and sickens people before they realize it.
This client, well, lets just say the place was a mess! The client was so used to having all this baggage and just it overwhelming that by the time it was even fractionally clean, there was a great change in the client. Health wise, better, the space created (or found) was great! it was liek a whole new place ! sorta, this was just with a few visits.
So, what's the point? Point is, these things (anger, pride, selfishness, hate, unforgiveness, fear, etc.) these things , hidden, or stored or whatever it is , held..... it's gonna kill us, who we were meant to be, what we were meant to do. The payment for this, is disease of the heart, payment of lost things, people, ability to do things, time. The Bible says:
James 4:14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
I have to , at the least, I just gotta stop holding grudges, stop being pessimistic, what is to gain by hurting one to hurt them? What do I gain by just looking out for myself? What is gained by carrying this burden and adding to it all the time, can I fix it ? Does running away or hiding it help ? NO.
If a person were to get an injury say stabbed or even cut, doe s a bandaid fix it? No, God fixes it and that is not by covering it up onlly and hiding it. Doing that invites infection, not healing, making things worse.
How many years have I been in medical field and seen people who just ignore injuries? Yet I do not realize that is how our minds and souls do it. i can't fix them, I can help but even then i had help. SO it is here, i don't fix nothing, God does it.
Matthew 19:26
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Yeah, so that's that, I feel like junk tonight, I really pray this made sense Dan. I can't think straight at this moment. Praise God that He doesn't need me to make sense, He can make sense out of anything.
Thank You God for this wonderful weather. For the ability to write, to sing, to pray, to laugh, to cry, to feel pain, to feel joy! Thank you for all You do and will do. Forgive us please. Help her, increase the srength or just give us strength in You and not ourselves. Help us to bear trials, to hold on to You and not on what others say; to let Your Word be the final say and not distort it for ourselves. Please, I beg a miracle in those things upon the heart. Help those who lost loved ones to death or other reasons. Be with the family all of ours. Help us to love , to the point that it runs through us like the blood in our veins, that we may be just a kajillionth of Your reflection in thsi dark world. This heart is in pain, help it to not turn from you. Help her, HELP her Please! Ok, well You rock God, thank you for all. By Your Son, Amen.
Monday, March 14, 2011
hm, blinded
Psalm 19: 12 But who can discern their own errors?
Forgive my hidden faults.
13 Keep your servant also from willful sins;
may they not rule over me.
another point
Here goes a continuation to the points 2 days ago, so number 2:
2. there are somethings I store up cause I want to hide from it and others from it
Psalm 69:5
You, God, know my folly; my guilt is not hidden from you.
What is my point, well just that it's not good to do that. To be weary of it and also, just to not hide from myself and others. Hm, doesn't turn out pretty though all the time, honesty may be the best policy but that doesn't mean it will be a smooth ride.
2. there are somethings I store up cause I want to hide from it and others from it
Psalm 69:5
You, God, know my folly; my guilt is not hidden from you.
Luke 8:17
For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open.Hebrews 4:13
Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Ok so, hm, acting, that is a very crazy thing. An actor plays a part that is not the actor, he/she is hiding oneself to the entertainment of manipulation of another. We do this to many times, in fact after a while we become this persona and it destroys us. Um, I heard a story of Heath Ledger, he played the Joker on "The Dark Knight" movie. Says He died of and Overdose. One story went that he immersed himself into his role so much it well, destroyed him, led him to the OD. Hiding and forgetting the difference between reality and act.
Ok, all that to say, it is a coward who does these things. It is a weak and/or confused person to do these things. Haha, it is almost everyone i have met in my life, including myself.
Hiding, what have I hidden ? What have I been scared to show? I don't know all things, but one is anger, or hiding it in the form of bottling it up. I have been angry many times, I bottled it up and hurt those I love, her in fact and other family, most importantly, God. Shoot, I thought if I held it in, i could control it, but it just built up, and i collapsed under it and it consumed me.
Hide what else? Pride, hm, it is easier to put an outward reason for doing things or something. Such as helping someone, do I do it for them or for myself ( "hey I helped you at this, you owe me" , internal 'hey i did a good job MYSELF') , arg, I'm sad to say, um, "religious" people do this, I do this. Look at what changes the differences of religion, pride, in oneself or what one does.
We hide under the guise"it's a good thing to do" but why are we doing it? Are we truly doing God's will for Him or for myself only. No, I know there is some self in choices, it makes one feel good, but as with anything, feeling good about "me" is not the point.
Yeah so how off would we realize we are if we didn't hide that. In fact, hiding only hinders growth. Hm, finally got some real help on anger and some major rebuke on my own pride and selfishness. Haha, I'm far from "rehabilitated" no, God knows i will always need His help and that which he provides through others, but you see, the hiding has created a deep chasm to over come.
What is my point, well just that it's not good to do that. To be weary of it and also, just to not hide from myself and others. Hm, doesn't turn out pretty though all the time, honesty may be the best policy but that doesn't mean it will be a smooth ride.
Oh, Father, help them who fell and lost so much in the Earthquake and tsunami. Those lost by shootings and betrayal. I'm sorry for your pain and the double mind and pain I give you. Protect her, I wish this love would mean something I got for her, but I keep feeling like I'm messing up, may your will be done. Help me just accept what you say and not what I want to hear and what others try to "make me feel good" only. Help her. Help the family. There is so much pain, how do you handle it?
Thank you for a beautiful day, help my foot, cause i don't know what is wrong with it, but it hurts. Get me ready for the battle. I feel so unprepared. In Jesus Name. Amen.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Dang nabbit
Wow, how much junk do we carry? There are seventeen posts that are just drafts. Stuff that I have posted about over time and some that I just don't know what is wrong but it isn't right to put yet.
Then I look at the stuff around me , the things I have stored up both physically and mentally. Lots of people have the same problem, in fact unless you have that short term memory, we all do it.
3 things I notice here for myself, maybe other people see it or have it too:
1. There are some things I just hold onto cause I'm afraid to and/ don't want to let it go or face it
2. there are somethings I store up cause I want to hide from it and others from it
3. over time, this build up becomes too much and the it seems you don't even know what you are paying for.
Well, think there is more, but these 3 just stick out at me. Today though, I think of taking it one point at a time.So to 1.
1. There are some things I just hold onto cause i'm afraid to and/or don't want to let it go or face it
14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:14-15
13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-15
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
Then I look at the stuff around me , the things I have stored up both physically and mentally. Lots of people have the same problem, in fact unless you have that short term memory, we all do it.
3 things I notice here for myself, maybe other people see it or have it too:
1. There are some things I just hold onto cause I'm afraid to and/ don't want to let it go or face it
2. there are somethings I store up cause I want to hide from it and others from it
3. over time, this build up becomes too much and the it seems you don't even know what you are paying for.
Well, think there is more, but these 3 just stick out at me. Today though, I think of taking it one point at a time.So to 1.
1. There are some things I just hold onto cause i'm afraid to and/or don't want to let it go or face it
Let me see, my biological father was/is in law enforcement. I dunno, never really knew much about him, besides that. the one thing I do know is that he cheated on my mom and had another family, other things came to light also, but that is her story and I wish to not tell it since it is very sensitive. For that, my heart has burned with anger. With time, my mother told me the other things he did to her, things I'm ashamed that I may have done to others if the woman of my heart, and my own family and people had not rebuked me on already. I carry in my blood both good and bad of my parents. Yet it is not what is in me that will destroy me, but what I do . And boy do I mess up but by God's grace He has helped me, even when I've been too stubborn to do the right thing or put off things I know I need. T I'm sorry to her and others my stubborness and selfishness has hurt, I pray for reconcilliation.
To the story, the things my biological father had done to her, well, most people would hate him, cheating, various other things, but when I told my mother if I ever saw him I would well, not be happy water it down as best I can, she said this "as a Christian I feel very sorry for him and pray that someday he can make Jesus Lord of His life. Do I hold it against Him - NO praise the Lord
because I know my sin against my GOD was greater and He forgave me. If he ever needed me I would be
there to help him just as I am for his mother and rest of his family. To the world I have all the excuses for
hating him but to God I don't and He is the one that will judge me. Even with all he did to me even with
his cheating I still fought to keep my marriage but he wanted out and that was me just knowing the little
I knew about God so never mind her knowing what He truly did for her."
Me and my Mom have lots I fight and fought each other about. Too many to count. But this truly gives me respect for her. Letting go, um, I think Jesus had this meaning or it was part of the meaning when he said "
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." Luke 6:28
because I know my sin against my GOD was greater and He forgave me. If he ever needed me I would be
there to help him just as I am for his mother and rest of his family. To the world I have all the excuses for
hating him but to God I don't and He is the one that will judge me. Even with all he did to me even with
his cheating I still fought to keep my marriage but he wanted out and that was me just knowing the little
I knew about God so never mind her knowing what He truly did for her."
Me and my Mom have lots I fight and fought each other about. Too many to count. But this truly gives me respect for her. Letting go, um, I think Jesus had this meaning or it was part of the meaning when he said "
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." Luke 6:28
Letting go, not of the person, but face the problem.
What else, um, let me try and break it down further, I want to use personal but honestly, I'm not ready for that just yet so i'm gonna be using a more general idea/example.
I have a bullet proof vest, on that vest I have the ability to add pouches and stuff to put things on it. I had on that vest a few things, these things, I carried all year and beyond, what were they? Some old box, some cord, a pen, a little New Testament, some candy (yuck, year old candy). but why? Well, i know why I carried the Bible and pen (write and read) but the rest, just some junk I was too afraid to get rid of (hey never know when you need some random cord....jk), some things also weigh down, I have seen others with a ton of pouches of this or that, just weighing down. the vest itself weighs enough, why add more? Cause we are afraid to let it go. Some things carried we would face that we have to rely on others to carry, but we carried ourselves cause we were afraid to trust others to let go and be vulnerable to that. To face our vulnerability. Rather the things I hide from myself and other, that I run away from to the point that it may actually be running into places I know make me feel better, yet are not better for me. Easy or feel good doesn't make right or better.
This is life though, we carry our burdens and we add to them and destroy our selves, because we don't want to face or truly deal with something and rather we lose someone.
Well, that's that point, um, not here to give "my answers" but like G I Joe says " knowing is half the battle". Only answer found is not my own on any sense.....
13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-15
Hope this helps someone. May the day be blessed and encouraging.
Peace.....Love.....
Saturday, March 12, 2011
"Not Alone" Lyrics - RED - Until We Have Faces
Any who weary, (yeah Dan that is you too), A.E.E., no person can replace God, I ask to go this journey with you, to all , He is real, and hm, well, you go to believe, but when you are at the bottom of the pit of despair or on your way down, I hope this song helps. Not sure if video works well, so words at bottom to share if wanted.
May the hope of God help you. If only a moment of the sun shines, I pray it shines on you. Please, Father, need strength.
Slowly fading away
You're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold
Looking for a distant light
Someone who could save a life
You're living in fear that no one will hear your cries
Can you save me now
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
Cause your not, your not alone
Your heart is full of broken dreams
Just a fading memory
And everything's gone but the pain carries on
Lost in the rain again
When will it ever end
The arms of relief seem so out of reach
But I, I am here
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
Cause your not, your not alone
And I'll be your hope when you feel like its over
And I will pick you up when your whole world shatters
And when you're finally in my arms
Look up and see love has a face
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
Cause you're not, you're not alone
And I will be your hope
And I will pick you up
And I will be your hope
And I will be your hope
Slow fading away
Your lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold
Hope for tomorrow
What do we do when we don't get the answer we want? Well, it depends on how badly I want "my answer" . I don't understand God , and rightly so.
Deuteronomy 29:29 (NIV)
29 The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.
Joshua 24:15
But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Romans 8:24
For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?
Deuteronomy 29:29 (NIV)
29 The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.
What does that mean? Means I don;t know everything. I hate that. Why? Cause the work I have done and have been told over and over again is "on a need to know basis". I have hated having to be vague in telling her and others what I have done or not done or do and not do.
Yet this is how it is. I don't understand why some things happen and why God says somethings that He says. The point is, the answer is not what I want to hear.
Isaiah 40: 28
28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. I don't understand GOD! I don't! WHY?! Why do you say some of the things you say?! Why does it feel at times specially now that I'm just being buried deeper and deeper underfoot, as if you are not listening or the plight is not worthy of answer?
NO, it is not that, no,m it is that I want one answer and that answer is not what is given. My heart, soul, all of it longs for the answer I want, yet it keeps coming back negative, no, not negative, but that which I don't want.
That is why it says : Romans 1:17 For in the gospel the righteousness of God is revealed—a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: “The righteous will live by faith.”
Am I living by faith? Can I ? Is this faith in God or is it a faith as the world wants, where it is really in oneself, but has "moral basis" to it, a shadow of true faith.
Is it a selfish faith? Alas, the depths of sin in this world has made it so dirty.
But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”
This is not a verse that says it will be easy or we won't mess up, heck, following is not a "now I'm perfect person" nope, it's I'm a messed up person and I need help and the one who helps me makes me perfect leads me to perfection through trials and good times, and all in between.
There is hope, I know this is somewhat down sounding, but the hope is not in this world, it is something I do not understand but i have to believe in GOD not men in.
Hebrews 11:1Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Romans 8:24
For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?
Please help me in hope, not in this life, but set hope on who is unseen, You.
I still always ask for a miracle with her. I love her with all I got. Your will be done. Help me accept the answers you have given me. Help Phoenix get a heart. Those Hit by the tsunami and the repercussions, help. Help ! Need Help ! In Your son I ask, Amen.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
The expression of sorrow in a song
A song I listen to and one that gives me grand emotion. The heart cries and breaks. A E E.
Hope it helps someone. May God give help and guidance .
Red - Hymn For The Missing Lyrics
I tried to walk together
But the night was growing dark
Thought you were beside me
But I reached and you were gone
Sometimes I hear you calling
From some lost and distant shore
I hear you crying softly for the way it was before
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid?
Are you searching for me?
Why did you go?
I had to stay
Now I'm reaching for you.
Will you wait? Will you wait?
Will I see you again?
You took it with you when you left
These scars are just a trace
Now it wanders, lost and wounded
This heart that I misplaced
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid?
Are you searching for me?
Why did you go?
I had to stay
Now I'm reaching for you
Will you wait? Will you wait?
Will I see you again?
Psalm 41:4
I said, “Have mercy on me, LORD; heal me, for I have sinned against you."
Psalm 6:2
Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint; heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony.
Peace, Love, strength, and blessing .....
Hope it helps someone. May God give help and guidance .
Red - Hymn For The Missing Lyrics
I tried to walk together
But the night was growing dark
Thought you were beside me
But I reached and you were gone
Sometimes I hear you calling
From some lost and distant shore
I hear you crying softly for the way it was before
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid?
Are you searching for me?
Why did you go?
I had to stay
Now I'm reaching for you.
Will you wait? Will you wait?
Will I see you again?
You took it with you when you left
These scars are just a trace
Now it wanders, lost and wounded
This heart that I misplaced
Where are you now?
Are you lost?
Will I find you again?
Are you alone?
Are you afraid?
Are you searching for me?
Why did you go?
I had to stay
Now I'm reaching for you
Will you wait? Will you wait?
Will I see you again?
Psalm 41:4
I said, “Have mercy on me, LORD; heal me, for I have sinned against you."
Psalm 6:2
Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint; heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony.
Peace, Love, strength, and blessing .....
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Oh, a letter someone wrote me
Well, here is a letter, written to me that slapped me in the face. Got me thinking about what stuff wrote 2 days ago.
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Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that He may lift YOU up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring
lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith,
because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is
undergoing the same kind of sufferings. (1 Peter 5:6-9)
For in Scripture it says:
“See, I lay a stone in Zion,
a chosen and precious cornerstone,
and the one who trusts in him
will never be put to shame.”[a]
7 Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe,
“The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone,”[b]
8 and,
“A stone that causes people to stumble
and a rock that makes them fall.”[c]
They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for. (1 Peter 2:6)
(Dan), IT IS TIME you made up your mind whom you choose to believe and obey.
Therefore: If serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for
yourself this day whom you will serve. Joshua 24:15
You need to make up your mind wether you are going to believe God's Word or not
but you cannot have it both ways. You cannot continue to disect it to your desire.
Lately you have created an image of God in your mind and that image is NOT God. God's Word
is perfect and righteous and you need to either believe what it says or not to, but STOP
making it something it is not. His Word is either truth or a lie and if you say it is truth
than you need to put your total trust in it and stop questioning it and start believing in it.
God is light and there is no shadow in Him.
(Dan) , you need to decide whether the message of the cross is foolishness to you
or the power of God. (1 Corinthians 1:18) It can only be one or the other. He is either
the Cornerstone or the capstone of our lives. (1 Peter 2:6) His Word is either truth or lie and if truth than why do
you continue to question it when you don't agree with it. If it is truth there is NOTHING
you can disagree with. I can understand not being able at times to understand what His Word says
or why He did this here or allowed this there and why not here or there? Our desire to know the
whys is reasonable if we don't make them our life but still doesn't give us a reason to not believe.
You must remember that: The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed
belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law. (Deu. 29:29)
One thing for sure is that you cannot pick and choose what passages to believe and what
passages not to believe.
Therefore you must take every thought captive and evaluate them and make them obedient
to Christ. Our feelings and what we believe can be very different than God's which is
why we have to make them obedient to Him. (2 Corinthians 10:3-5)
If He is truth and His Word is truth than you need to START putting your trust in Him
and believing His promises instead of questioning them or accusing Him of being a liar by
contradicting Himself by not fulfilling His promises the way YOU want Him to. He is our CREATOR
and owes us NO explanation if that is what He chooses.
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I dunno, really slapped me hard. still reeling over it. Well, hope helps someone if they read this ......
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring
lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith,
because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is
undergoing the same kind of sufferings. (1 Peter 5:6-9)
For in Scripture it says:
“See, I lay a stone in Zion,
a chosen and precious cornerstone,
and the one who trusts in him
will never be put to shame.”[a]
7 Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe,
“The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone,”[b]
8 and,
“A stone that causes people to stumble
and a rock that makes them fall.”[c]
They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for. (1 Peter 2:6)
(Dan), IT IS TIME you made up your mind whom you choose to believe and obey.
Therefore: If serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for
yourself this day whom you will serve. Joshua 24:15
You need to make up your mind wether you are going to believe God's Word or not
but you cannot have it both ways. You cannot continue to disect it to your desire.
Lately you have created an image of God in your mind and that image is NOT God. God's Word
is perfect and righteous and you need to either believe what it says or not to, but STOP
making it something it is not. His Word is either truth or a lie and if you say it is truth
than you need to put your total trust in it and stop questioning it and start believing in it.
God is light and there is no shadow in Him.
(Dan) , you need to decide whether the message of the cross is foolishness to you
or the power of God. (1 Corinthians 1:18) It can only be one or the other. He is either
the Cornerstone or the capstone of our lives. (1 Peter 2:6) His Word is either truth or lie and if truth than why do
you continue to question it when you don't agree with it. If it is truth there is NOTHING
you can disagree with. I can understand not being able at times to understand what His Word says
or why He did this here or allowed this there and why not here or there? Our desire to know the
whys is reasonable if we don't make them our life but still doesn't give us a reason to not believe.
You must remember that: The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things revealed
belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law. (Deu. 29:29)
One thing for sure is that you cannot pick and choose what passages to believe and what
passages not to believe.
Therefore you must take every thought captive and evaluate them and make them obedient
to Christ. Our feelings and what we believe can be very different than God's which is
why we have to make them obedient to Him. (2 Corinthians 10:3-5)
If He is truth and His Word is truth than you need to START putting your trust in Him
and believing His promises instead of questioning them or accusing Him of being a liar by
contradicting Himself by not fulfilling His promises the way YOU want Him to. He is our CREATOR
and owes us NO explanation if that is what He chooses.
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I dunno, really slapped me hard. still reeling over it. Well, hope helps someone if they read this ......
Just a verse
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us - Hebrews 12:1
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Friday, March 4, 2011
So they say
Here goes something to learn from ,
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
This was written to Joshua after Moses died. What's it mean? It is a promise. The thing here is that there is more than just this verse to this whole thing.
If read from v.1, it talks about 3 things :
1. God will always be there
2. To succeed, do what God says, not just what I want to hear or think or believe.
3. It has to be a conscious and constant thing.
Some people talk about how, God is always there, watching and so forth, and I'm not gonna knock that, but like this verse, there is more to it than that. God says ( Matthew 5: 45) "..... He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous."
Hm, so no doubt God is always there, and has the power to do this or that.
But point 2, is missed a lot ( Joshua 1: 7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.)
Huh, what are you getting at Dan? Each day I wake, I see 2 things, Dan who wants to use rationalization or wants my kind of proof and knowing, or Dan who wakes up and says "well, I know what I want and stuff, but to the abyss with that, cause it isn't about me......" My so called "reasoning" and "knowledge" if it doesn't come from faith in the Word, is neither reason or knowledge.
I have to go all in or not at all, look at Rev. 3: 15 I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16 So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
Whoa, this is a hard teaching, there is reason for it though. All through history of the Jews/Israelites/ Hebrews/ Christians, there are stories and proofs of those going to the left or right, from when the Old covenant was given ( by the time Jesus came, there were all these "added" rules of things to be done and such) to the Gentiles where given the Word ( the Jewish Elders were trying to make the Gentiles live by Jewish laws, ways, circumcision and such) and even now (all the traditions given as if it is Bible law and divisions in the believers not on things Godly, but traditionally made)
The left or right was not based on Moses, nor now is it based on what Brother John Doe said or added to this or that, but on what God says.
Point 3, well, ( 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.) ,
"Constant vigilance" this was a term i read in a book, no the Word, I use this term because it is a catalyst in my head to this point, always on the lookout, always looking, or at the forefront of the mind.
In um, other terms, constant focus needs to be on God. Gosh, this is another spike in the heart.
Why , WHY?
Hm, a story, I run 3x a week with other guys for some training, earlier in the morning than I would like to. Yeah I get grumpy when I wake, cause I want my shut eye( I sleep poorly, um, many reasons for that). Also, um they like to run a good 3 -5 miles recently and I of course don't like running so long. This past 2 weeks, when I ran um, I forced myself to do one thing, some way, while they sing cadence (my lungs don't like or allow me to sing along right now, something with temperature and slower acclimation to the weather here) or we are just running, I focus on 2 um, verses, either in song or just in verse form, they are: Matthew 22:37 :
Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ , and related to Psalm 41:1 & 2 :
As the deer pants for streams of water, yes my soul Longs after You.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. Yes my soul longs after You.
Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
This was written to Joshua after Moses died. What's it mean? It is a promise. The thing here is that there is more than just this verse to this whole thing.
If read from v.1, it talks about 3 things :
1. God will always be there
2. To succeed, do what God says, not just what I want to hear or think or believe.
3. It has to be a conscious and constant thing.
Some people talk about how, God is always there, watching and so forth, and I'm not gonna knock that, but like this verse, there is more to it than that. God says ( Matthew 5: 45) "..... He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous."
Hm, so no doubt God is always there, and has the power to do this or that.
But point 2, is missed a lot ( Joshua 1: 7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.)
Huh, what are you getting at Dan? Each day I wake, I see 2 things, Dan who wants to use rationalization or wants my kind of proof and knowing, or Dan who wakes up and says "well, I know what I want and stuff, but to the abyss with that, cause it isn't about me......" My so called "reasoning" and "knowledge" if it doesn't come from faith in the Word, is neither reason or knowledge.
I have to go all in or not at all, look at Rev. 3: 15 I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16 So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.
Whoa, this is a hard teaching, there is reason for it though. All through history of the Jews/Israelites/ Hebrews/ Christians, there are stories and proofs of those going to the left or right, from when the Old covenant was given ( by the time Jesus came, there were all these "added" rules of things to be done and such) to the Gentiles where given the Word ( the Jewish Elders were trying to make the Gentiles live by Jewish laws, ways, circumcision and such) and even now (all the traditions given as if it is Bible law and divisions in the believers not on things Godly, but traditionally made)
The left or right was not based on Moses, nor now is it based on what Brother John Doe said or added to this or that, but on what God says.
Point 3, well, ( 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.) ,
"Constant vigilance" this was a term i read in a book, no the Word, I use this term because it is a catalyst in my head to this point, always on the lookout, always looking, or at the forefront of the mind.
In um, other terms, constant focus needs to be on God. Gosh, this is another spike in the heart.
Why , WHY?
Hm, a story, I run 3x a week with other guys for some training, earlier in the morning than I would like to. Yeah I get grumpy when I wake, cause I want my shut eye( I sleep poorly, um, many reasons for that). Also, um they like to run a good 3 -5 miles recently and I of course don't like running so long. This past 2 weeks, when I ran um, I forced myself to do one thing, some way, while they sing cadence (my lungs don't like or allow me to sing along right now, something with temperature and slower acclimation to the weather here) or we are just running, I focus on 2 um, verses, either in song or just in verse form, they are: Matthew 22:37 :
Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ , and related to Psalm 41:1 & 2 :
As the deer pants for streams of water, yes my soul Longs after You.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. Yes my soul longs after You.
that's it, those 2 things. just repeating them over and over, I know I look weird cause I absent mindedly mouth the words and some of my higher ups have seen it and and had perplexed faces. Kinda funny, but um, it has really been helpful, cause you see, simply reminding myself these things, I have had a ton more energy, in fact, it is like the world looks new, i look at the sky and somehow, no matter the weather, something positive comes to mind.
This is just recently again, there are many days and throughout days that start well then I lose focus or get sidetracked and do something selfish.
But I think it is an example of why God says to meditate on the Word always and constantly.
But I think it is an example of why God says to meditate on the Word always and constantly.
It's too um, easy or um, too many things take our attention from tv, to people, to our own minds and the Devil uses that so easily. Our best intentions get pushed aside or tweaked, the war within us is raging always.
Why Dan are you thinking of all this? Well, one is a conv or more accurately, a rebuke given me earlier, gonna have to put it up here, it was pretty harsh (well, harsh is an overstatement, just cause I didn't want to hear it) yet also, cause of the perception of choice that separates so many people, more to the point of the argument over "once saved always saved".
Um, I hope this made sense, my energy level is low today, haven't slept , had a nice 24hr shift, and I know I dozed off in some of it (had 2 of us on it), but the consistent sleep hasn't come, I was hoping to exhaust myself, but guess not yet.
Well, God thanks for forgiveness. Please work on us, help her and lead her to the truth. Help us to meditate on whatever it is that focuses us on You. Oh God let her know the love YOu have and if also, m,y love for her, I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm making mistakes and just messing up. Yet at your feet i have to lay it. Oh God, I fail you so much, why, WHY do you love me?? Thank you for that, I can never "fill up the piggy bank" and earn it or deserve it. Thank you for the beauty of the sky and sun. For warmth and protection. Protect the family and Please, please, reach out o my sisters and get Phoenix a new heart. Your will be done and me be destroyed.
Why Dan are you thinking of all this? Well, one is a conv or more accurately, a rebuke given me earlier, gonna have to put it up here, it was pretty harsh (well, harsh is an overstatement, just cause I didn't want to hear it) yet also, cause of the perception of choice that separates so many people, more to the point of the argument over "once saved always saved".
Um, I hope this made sense, my energy level is low today, haven't slept , had a nice 24hr shift, and I know I dozed off in some of it (had 2 of us on it), but the consistent sleep hasn't come, I was hoping to exhaust myself, but guess not yet.
Well, God thanks for forgiveness. Please work on us, help her and lead her to the truth. Help us to meditate on whatever it is that focuses us on You. Oh God let her know the love YOu have and if also, m,y love for her, I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm making mistakes and just messing up. Yet at your feet i have to lay it. Oh God, I fail you so much, why, WHY do you love me?? Thank you for that, I can never "fill up the piggy bank" and earn it or deserve it. Thank you for the beauty of the sky and sun. For warmth and protection. Protect the family and Please, please, reach out o my sisters and get Phoenix a new heart. Your will be done and me be destroyed.
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