Howdy Saturday I think

What do I say? Today has been a long day. Very long and very scary. I had a nightmare, not sure what happened but I found myself fighting a demon. I haven't had dream that vivid or real feeling in a long time. I woke up thinking I was fighting it. It freaked me out. I remember one thing also, Using God's name to get rid of it. I was in the dark in my dream and was in a room, all of a sudden some demon attacked me, not just some random thing, but like it was waiting for the opportunity to see me weak and pounce on me. I was fighting for my life and all of a sudden in my mind, I hear" Use God" . wow, how far can I be mislead ? That right there, woke me up I think. I woke up afraid, first I thought it was the dream, (was vivid), but then I realized, it has been the simple answer that I over think.
 Use God. That is very simple to say. "Use God. Use Him. He wants you to."
Yet it seems we use Him when it suits us. If not then of course it isn't my fault. (sarcasm)
"ah, thank God I can do this today, thank God I'm not like this" (read Luke 18:9-12)

Truly, God is the one of mercy, cause everyday He reminds me how I need Him and how messed up I really am. I have been spending lots of time, tryin to tell God what I think and not hearing what He is saying. I don't know everything, in fact, the things I do know, are tested each day. Both within myself and outside. Sin does not stop for no man and that in itself, is a reason/reminder that we need Him. For this reason, I say today, Wow, there really is no God but the God of heaven.
I think my heart has no more tears to shed today, it has been a long day in this sense. For many reasons. Each day though, thank God, I pray for mercy and a miracle, today was a miracle and out pouring of mercy, for easy He could just say "ok, enough is enough, I'm done with Dan, he just is a mess-up, he doesn't get it, he has to use me all the time"
No instead He says "lets remind Him who I AM, get him back on track, and let him remember to come to me whenever the tears, wailing,pain, joy, anger, fear, selfishness or lack of courage, anything comes his way or by his mistakes..... "

So, I continue to pray for mercy and a miracle for something in particular and lower my head and body to him.

Today though, I did and hope others do: Psalm 95:1-2

Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD;
 let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.
Let us come before him with thanksgiving
 and extol him with music and song.

God is good always, though I cannot see what is ahead, I can have confidence that through my mistakes , errors, stupidity, triumphs and failures, He will watch and help if I remember aka lower myself,  to "use God" in everything, always.
I pray for a miracle....for mercy.....for her who my heart loves.....


A.E.E. please.....chance