Well, I don't know what to say though, I thought I would be more worried or going crazy. Shoot, my computer had tons of um, "character" (broken screen, even put a bandaid on it) and when I lost it, i was freaked out at first, but then calmed down pretty quick. My phone, well, that was weird, one moment working, so I go to sleep and wake up and what, less than 7 hrs later, it is dead, no life in it. Hm, usually I be freaking out, but I dunno, I wasn't.
Maybe it's cause these things mean very little in life. I think some people have helped , no I know some people have showed me some things in perspective. Life is not about the things we have. In fact, some people say "you deserve better this or that" "You deserve to enjoy life"
Hm, really, I deserve this all? Is that what we have become, people who "deserve" these good things?
What does Job say when he is starting to go through trials in Job 2, while he has been afflicted with painful sores (NIV) after already losing all he had and his sons and daughters, save for his wife.....lets look here in Chapter 2 :
9 His wife said to him, “Are you still maintaining your integrity? Curse God and die!”
10 He replied, “You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?”
This is a guy who God says (Job 1:8 Then the LORD said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.”)
So what do we deserve? What do I deserve? looking at Job, I think he has the right idea, in chapter 1: 21 and said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.”
That's it, we don't deserve anything good. In fact, we deserve death, cause we sin. Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
But back to something else. I don't like that the computer was stolen, nor do i like the phone going kaput. Yet, that is nothing in comparison to what people have been showing and communicating. There are real problems out there, people are dying for no reason other than being a different religion, or being in the wrong place at the wrong time. People need help. There is an emptiness that can't be filled with anything I do or someone else does. Though we try to , it won't ever work permanently.
I don't deserve good things, it is a gift to have them and not of my own but of God. Nor am I to blame God if something bad ( in my view or even truly bad) happens or is happening.
Ouch that hurts me Dan, cause I have done that and really, who am I to blame God for things. Instead, I should thank /praise His name He counts me worthy to go through them, in order to help others and to grow. I have learned many things due to stuff. A computer and a phone are not the end of the world if they don't work. To take my time is not a bad thing. To love doesn't mean to base it on being loved back. Love is a decision. I deserve nothing more than a place in death.
Haha, so how did you get to write today dan? well, a friend let me borrow a computer. God provides. I hope this helps someone, I wish , no I pray for healing, not for me, but for her, that God guides her and fills that hole that only He is capable of filling. Hm, i got lots of prayers, I have to put it on a new thing.
Thank you God fo rputting up with us, sorry we are so slow and mess up. Forgive us and heal us.
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