Well, what can I say, Dan ? Smorgishborg! Well patriots won. Wahoo! You don't belong here dan. The joy you once felt is not there. The kids are gorgeous, marios girls are cute and rebelo's are cool. But you just don't belong here. I want to e with her! I want to spend it with her! Snotbuckets! The one I want to be with and have happiness with is the one that wants nothing to do with me. I would cross the world for her, but won't . Why? Cause the only person who could stop me is her, and she is. I hate not talking to her and I think of her everyday!EVERYDAY!
Alas, all the work, the tryin, means nothing
How does God do it?! I mean, this is one person to another, commitments made and I'm tryin to keep it! Yet as much as that kills me inside, GOD has to deal with this from what.....1hat is the world at , like 10 billion?
Whoa, back this up. I'm imperfect, not comparing myself to God. NO WAY !
What I'm saying is, well, yeah I hurt, she means more to me than she may or may not know and well this kills me inside, but we're both imperfect, make mistakes. We don't deserve anything good and we all make mistakes.
God on the other hand didn't do the wrong, knows better than us,me, etc., but He gets heartbroken like this to an extent way beyond this from so many. How does He do it?! Why the heck does He still love and what does that mean?
Hm, well think of many things, He loved us enough to let Israel walk away from Him. To wait, not to just toss em aside cause they messed up with the commands and stuff, but when they turned to other Gods or turned away from Him, and He tried, I mean TRIED, to just envelope them in not penalty, but in patience, reaching out with miracles, and perhaps most hurtful to Him, letting us fall and go our own way, whether or not we returned, always hoping for us to not get hurt, but learn and come back to Him. That is what love is. Not cause it felt good, not cause it doesn't hurt or is so fun; no its what is best for others, in our case, what we believe is best for others. Wow, um gonna come back to this Dan. I need a computer to type more out. Wow, lots coming to mind. Brain Overloading!
Help us God , to let go of what I think and um do what Proverbs 3:5 talks about, cause you have the best example and know what you talk about/ are doing/mean.
Please be with her and heal and guide her. Please from the bottom of my heart, let her know/and believe how much I love her and maybe there is still love you can work with from her. Mostly may she be yours, I'm scared. Please! Please God! I beg from the depths of my soul! In Jesus' name. Amen.
Healing, forgiveness, joy, growth for all.
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