Like a Child

Well, wrote this to someone I care so much about, a lil while back. Keep thinking about it, so thought to share it.

Matthew 18: 2 He called a little child and had him stand among them.
3And he said: “I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like
little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in
the kingdom of heaven. "

- What is a child? A reflection of the parent(s), when hurt, goes to him/her,
vibrant, learning, creative, believes nothing is impossible,
forgiving, forgetful,dependant, has humility, is what he/she sees the
parent doing. They are teachable,learns from the parent, not in control.
willingly dependent on their parents.Our parent is God.

-So we must learn to have those qualities, God we lean on, willing to
listen and learn, and allow Him to show us the way.When we leave from
having a child heart is where things start to go haywire.
Everyday is hard, cause at least for me, it's "be a man" just do it.
On your own or trusting only in man. No, God has to do it, have to
rely and look to Him. I'm not my own man, I'm God's man. No, no matter
how old I get, I'm God's child. Unlike our earthly parents, I will
never lose Him or "grow up" over, stronger, or whatever even near,
infinitely much less behind God. It's awesome cause He is always there .

 Mark 10:15 " I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." 


I wonder why Jesus picked  a child sometimes. Now a days we are trying to "grow up" so quickly. To be serious all the time or something. Take care of "our" lives and such. Nor reliance on God over ourselves or people. We lose so much in becoming "adults" and going on our way. I love how no matter what, even if a child is being disruptive, they eventually go back to the parent. This is the longing I have, to be with my Father, so many times He is in the background, doing all this stuff and I keep thinking "yay I did it" when really He is doing it . Or I do something dumb and He scolds me yet does it in the best way possible (unfortunately I don't always um , get past the hardness of my head so easily, so sometimes it is not pretty as it could be if i softened up a little.....:) )

Also, it is humbling to know that I will be a child to Him, His child. It isn't derogatory, it is very calming, that He will be there, though I stub my soul from sin, though the world and loved ones leave me or fail me or/and I them, He will open His arms and teach me and heal me and tell me, " I love you, I'm here for you, I will protect you, and I have your back; this is not the end, with me there is no end, only a chance for renewal and perfection and an amazing life." " Listen to my words, they lead you to life, look at my actions, they give you the example"

So, hm, I guess what I'm saying is, don't lose yourself in yourself, been there, done that too many times. It takes getting back to the heart of a child in order for God to instruct us, help us to be what we were meant to be; to get off this self devoted/seeking life we start to live. When life gets crazy, things seem to be out of control or just hurting or whatever good and bad, there is one who loves you in an amazing way.

Hm, be safe, be careful.....as I was told long ago and I always need to remember (darn you hard head) " God is good.....all the time"