I just can't do this. Shouldn't be doing this drive alone. I'm a horrid person. Bad son,bad brother, not a friend;just horrible.I alienated/drove away people by who I am. Then its too late by the time figure it out to change, cause the damage is done. Think doing the right thing, but it doesn't seem to work out; is it a test or a punishment? Which road is being traveled? What have I done and become? Is there any forgiveness?