Hm, I'm tired. I feel so alone. Why did she walk away ? why did she leave like this?
Allowing is not the same as approving. God allows us to choose to have faith not in what He says or not. There is so much that is to choose, to do the " I believe this means this" " I believe there is no God" "I believe in Islam" " I believe but, I think this" " I believe this only works for then times, now though I can and I say this is this, and I believe God would do this"
Ah, I can't figure this out. I have to take it basic, God says this, i have to do that. I have to fight and fight to do it and when I fail, I have to repent and fight more. This life isn't about joy in it, but joy in God, it's all about God.
That is a scary thing to some, and well, this "all about God" is worth addressing and getting out of the system Dan. Yet not today. My life is all I got to show what I believe, if I put anything above God, her included, then it will fail and God says:
Matthew 10:35-38
Henceforth, I have to believe, God will work things out., That when when we choose to believe what WE want, He can do what He wants if we turn back to Him. He says, I do. He says, I fail and He picks me up. It's not gonna be easy and it will be a thorn among families, can we let go of them for God?
Oh, God, reconcile my heart to Yours! Kill this heart of mine and ressurect the dead parts to whatever You want.
Be with her, convict her heart to do what You say. Help me to do what is right and for us to not get complacent or lose ourselves in false worship.
Allowing is not the same as approving. God allows us to choose to have faith not in what He says or not. There is so much that is to choose, to do the " I believe this means this" " I believe there is no God" "I believe in Islam" " I believe but, I think this" " I believe this only works for then times, now though I can and I say this is this, and I believe God would do this"
Ah, I can't figure this out. I have to take it basic, God says this, i have to do that. I have to fight and fight to do it and when I fail, I have to repent and fight more. This life isn't about joy in it, but joy in God, it's all about God.
That is a scary thing to some, and well, this "all about God" is worth addressing and getting out of the system Dan. Yet not today. My life is all I got to show what I believe, if I put anything above God, her included, then it will fail and God says:
Matthew 10:35-38
35 "For I have come to turn
“‘a man against his father,
a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—
36 a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’[c]
a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—
36 a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’[c]
37 “Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it."
Oh, God, reconcile my heart to Yours! Kill this heart of mine and ressurect the dead parts to whatever You want.
Be with her, convict her heart to do what You say. Help me to do what is right and for us to not get complacent or lose ourselves in false worship.
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