Today

What is my place in this world? To be in but not of the world. Simple? Well, that is confusing, cause I have to be in the world, and all day I have the same thing, those around me want to follow their own desires and only add God when it suits them. That is not right.

Your place, Dan, is not there. It is not to be a “good guy” not to wake up and go to worship on Sunday or Wednesday. Not to look nice and do some “good things” . No, nothing of the sort.
Haha, I'm scaring myself. Even within me I want to scream “ NO DAN, THIS IS CRAZY! YOU'RE LOSING YOUR MIND!”

Hm, I that I'm losing my mind so that God's can replace it. Darn this weak and stubborn flesh! Were it as easy to destroy as a piece of paper with fire.

Romans 12:1-3
1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices,
holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. 3For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you.

I have to be dying, in my mind. God doesn't want me to have it “all together” , why the heck would I need Him then? No, He wants me to be dying, continually. Hm, yes Dan, you are having a random moment, why in the world are you thinking of a quote from Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone :
“-the trouble is, humans do have a knack of choosing precisely those things that are worst for them.” ?

Haha, duh, cause that is what I do, what we all do, we choose the worst for ourselves, did it in the garden and do it daily if left to our own devices. Look at “The Lord of the Flies” by William Golding, started out good, but then it turned to a tragedy.

Get back on track now, Dan. Pride, the killer of the greatest of men. Look here, God is mentioned 4x, as in what God wants and does.
God's Mercy
to God-not for oneself
God's will
God given ( …..measure of faith God has given”)

All other areas are denial of self, of pride. Not that there is not worth, but focus is not one self. The destruction of self. Hm, so my place in this world is 2 things:
Not feeling like I belong in this world
Removing the “ all about me” to changing it to “No one else but HE”
That takes faith, cause, well He says Him first, others second, Me well, “me” is an work in progress. Hm, I need a mental break, think this over, read it over and sink in, well, Dan, prayers, love, healing, to all, thanks to the Highest for another day of life and being back in the US. The part of m heart I miss and love, I pray for you. God you are more than I can imagine. Help US PLEASE!