Friday

Well what is up for today? Hm, more and more classes all day. Hm, did get to ride a motorcycle. Refresher class had to take. Refreshing, scary it was. Haven't ridden in about a year or so. Felt great to ride again once I got over the weirdness of being on a motorcycle.
Hm, thought about life. Refreshers, they can be scary. Or weird at least. Coming back to us after a deployment, scares the snot out of me. Specially now. The hardest part of the class today was not riding, it was turning on the engine..... Would I remember how? Would I look like a doofus? Hm, I realized once I got on, I closed my mind to what others were doing and how dumb I could look and remembered how good it was when I rode. For all the fear and mistakes, once I remebered how peaceful and great it could be I relaxed and refresher training turned to a great time.
That's how life can be, something changes and the hardest part is remembering how much good that has happened, fears come and wonder.....how dumb do I look? What will others think or say? The bottomline isn't that, that is there to push us away. Dan, you sure you making sense? Nope.
All I know is to dwell on the negative or wondering what others say or think need to be it's what God says and He reminds us that all we have to do is remember what great and wonderful things He has done and does. Our minds will betray us. God won't ever and we just have to turn to Him (turn on the engine) and let Him take us for a ride. All the great things will come back and the negative won't be as bad,in fact we might actually learn from it.
Eh, you're ramblin, Dan.
Maybe next time you will make more sense. You love her. God help me understand, heal us please.thank you for Your Love.