The days are long the nights are cold and lonely. The pay is low and the people are nosy. When you think you are good you find out you are so bad. When you want all you can see, you find out you have all that you need.
I work with many types of people, some are older (a lot actually), some are younger. Some are just a little sick, some are dying. if there is ever a place you can get a clue of how blessed you are, try walking without legs or not any arms, or being barely in your 20's and have a lifelong disease. Ina society that says "hey.\, I'm ipad 4, you need me to live" (you get the picture) or "Hey, you need these shoes, cars, money, and fame." Reality tv, funy yet crude shows...... and of course no one can ever live without cell phones or twitter or facebook or whatever is now...... side note, "bang with friends" ? What? go through your "friends" on facebook and this application with allow you to put the friends you would have random sex with and if they download it also you both will be notified..... um, yeah..... about that......
it's easy to get caught up with it. Shoot, I bought an Ipod touch and then some other electronics...... found out I didn't need them haha. I bought new clothes and some other stuff...... you guessed it, Dan, didn't need it. I gave away my xbox a long time ago, and came to new place and was all into getting an electronic toy....... yup it's sitting in a box on some dresser unopened. I have longed for this and that, jealous for how cool things some people buy. Then I wake up every morning and wonder.... "Why do I live, why is there a hole or longing.....?"
Tired...... got a hole. Then I started listening to music, not just any but some old stuff I had and memories came back. When was I living? Where did I die? I died at the point where "things" became more important than living. To be alive.... that is when there is helping people, singing in the shower some nonsense clean song. Helping someone learn about God and that there is more to life than sex, fame, money, things.....
Now not so tired..... dressing up like the gingerbread man for a hospital thing for kids, one of the most exhilirating things in my life. seeing the kids smile and laugh and play around with me and of course myself acting like a goofball....... that was living. No sex, not fame (kids don't know who I was) no money..... just joy. that was living. oh gosh I'm way off topic , Dan. Ok, um, lets wrap it up. Things are not worth a lick..... to live is not to have, to live is to give. wow, sorta sounds lame ending.
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Well, God, again take care of her family and her of course. No matter where in life she is or if with who. My parents, help them cope with abuelo going down hill, i'm bad at trying to comfort or such. The siblings, well, take care of them too and their kids. Sam, well, Sam's amazing person. Thank you that I got to play a part in challenging and just able to speak to Sam about You. I know I didn't do much but that was living. I forgot how much I liked talking about you to people. I'm sorry I fail, I'm sorry for this hardness. Again for her, I dunno. Well, I'm just rambling. Help the nation, we are morally corrupt. Alas, rome and greece and all those "great" nations.... they all crumbled. thank you for giving life.
I work with many types of people, some are older (a lot actually), some are younger. Some are just a little sick, some are dying. if there is ever a place you can get a clue of how blessed you are, try walking without legs or not any arms, or being barely in your 20's and have a lifelong disease. Ina society that says "hey.\, I'm ipad 4, you need me to live" (you get the picture) or "Hey, you need these shoes, cars, money, and fame." Reality tv, funy yet crude shows...... and of course no one can ever live without cell phones or twitter or facebook or whatever is now...... side note, "bang with friends" ? What? go through your "friends" on facebook and this application with allow you to put the friends you would have random sex with and if they download it also you both will be notified..... um, yeah..... about that......
it's easy to get caught up with it. Shoot, I bought an Ipod touch and then some other electronics...... found out I didn't need them haha. I bought new clothes and some other stuff...... you guessed it, Dan, didn't need it. I gave away my xbox a long time ago, and came to new place and was all into getting an electronic toy....... yup it's sitting in a box on some dresser unopened. I have longed for this and that, jealous for how cool things some people buy. Then I wake up every morning and wonder.... "Why do I live, why is there a hole or longing.....?"
Tired...... got a hole. Then I started listening to music, not just any but some old stuff I had and memories came back. When was I living? Where did I die? I died at the point where "things" became more important than living. To be alive.... that is when there is helping people, singing in the shower some nonsense clean song. Helping someone learn about God and that there is more to life than sex, fame, money, things.....
Now not so tired..... dressing up like the gingerbread man for a hospital thing for kids, one of the most exhilirating things in my life. seeing the kids smile and laugh and play around with me and of course myself acting like a goofball....... that was living. No sex, not fame (kids don't know who I was) no money..... just joy. that was living. oh gosh I'm way off topic , Dan. Ok, um, lets wrap it up. Things are not worth a lick..... to live is not to have, to live is to give. wow, sorta sounds lame ending.
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Well, God, again take care of her family and her of course. No matter where in life she is or if with who. My parents, help them cope with abuelo going down hill, i'm bad at trying to comfort or such. The siblings, well, take care of them too and their kids. Sam, well, Sam's amazing person. Thank you that I got to play a part in challenging and just able to speak to Sam about You. I know I didn't do much but that was living. I forgot how much I liked talking about you to people. I'm sorry I fail, I'm sorry for this hardness. Again for her, I dunno. Well, I'm just rambling. Help the nation, we are morally corrupt. Alas, rome and greece and all those "great" nations.... they all crumbled. thank you for giving life.
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