Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Hm, disguise of the heart


Psalm 22:1
[ Psalm 22 ] For the director of music. To the tune of “The Doe of the Morning.” A psalm of David. My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?


Matthew 27:46
About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”).

Mark 15:34
And at three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”).



The man after Your own heart said this and Your Son, said this. How I long to also say it! How I have longed for it, to be able to do it.
NO! I cannot! Instead, these are the words I have right to say, for the truth in them is undeniable. “ My God, My God why have I forsaken YOU?!”

From the time of my conception You have been there, before any knew my existence You were there, winding the sinews and threads of my soul and life. Why then do I blame You? Why then do I forsake the one who wants nothing but what is best for me? My God and creator, what am I but dust…… What am I but a tomb of death. My sins I carry, not because I must, but because I refuse to let You be You in my life.

You spoke through Jesus this….Matthew 23:27, 28
“Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean.
28 In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.”

When did it become so that I have become this? You know the thoughts of our hearts, the death we become when we believe that we are righteous of our own, that we are the victims. NO, we are not! I deserve this pain, for it is a consequence of sin and imperfection. You did nothing and yet were cast out and tormented by all ..... to the point of death! Where will it end?  

I need renewal and a cleansing of the heart. Please oh God, make a miracle and soften he heart of mine and of hers, I have to believe. In my hear, mind and prayers always for the WoMH. be with the family. How long til You come back oh God?! How long til the pain goes away?!

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