Ever get into a room and you think "what the heck am i doing here ?!" Yeah, have had that feeling since Sunday. Doing a class and I don't speak the language.....hm, slightly weird and creepy feeling until the interpreter shows up....(a 1/2 hr never felt this long in my life). So for one, just lil old me behind a desk (whoa, boxed in), second, like 20 grown men talking ab=mongst themselves and i hear words like (internet, doctor,american, No speak language), third, laughing and pointing at me, and fourth, yeah, where the class is located is surrounded by more locals and maybe 2-3 americans. Kinda scary if something were to go wrong. Yeah, nothing like a pocket knife and my bb gun (m4 carbine) here. SO that half hr from when i sit there waiting for an interpreter, lots of stuff and alienated feelings run through my mind.....I don't belong.
I don't belong. Anybody else feel that way ever? I do, none more than now, in a different place, surrounded by people i don't understand, those I do understand are probably not the best to imitate (language, ethically challengd?)
Is it bad to feel this way ? That I don't belong? No.
Jesus said in John 15: 19If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.
and in chapter 17:14I have given them your word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. 15My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. 16They are not of the world, even as I am not of it.
So it's ok I don't belong here. If you claim to be a Christian and think this world is where you belong, look again, I hope we all feel a lil out of place, cause we don't belong. Hm, yeah this is a hard thing to be isn't it? Who doesn't like being accepted? Please, be careful.
To all a good day, night . Be safe, be strong, be alert, love without end.
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