Aarg

I want her, just her. I don't know what else I'm supposed to do. I'm not unfaithful. I love her with every beat of my heart. Everyday I think of her and I just want to do the right thing! I don't know what else I'm supposed to do or can do, I begged I pleaded, counseling, everything I can think of. I just want a miracle, another chance. One day at a time. I don't know what else. I just want her. Be hers. No one else holds my heart like her. NO ONE. What am I supposed to do? Where are you God? Don't let it be like this! I want to do the right thing!

God, what am I supposed to do ? I want Andrea. I have no doubt you gave us to each other. Why God? You know everyday I think of her, I want to her, be able to show my repentance for things, go to counseling. I just want to make her happy. What is there to do ? Please give me something. To believe You. Need a great work. I turned my back on my parents, I try and do the right thing, yeah I fail, I'm tryin to have faith in some plan of yours but why is she beig taken away?! I just want her! That's it, nothing more than to be hers and prove more that really, there is no one else, I'm not perfect but she is the most important personto me. I have not wanted to not talk to her, just seems that u mess up each time I have written her. I check my phone everyday hoping to maybe hear from her. I want to send her the weekly encouragements I send her family and others. I want to wake up and turn and give her a kiss o. The cheek before I go to work. I have been selfish and angry before but I'm working on it, I go to service on my own, I even tried getting guys to to wig me, I try not to join the guys in stupidity and I have corrected them on stuff. Please this heart is ripped to shreds. It is one and done, her or nothing. Please PLEASE let it be known! I don't know what to do!