Destruction of self

Someone once told me (think I've said it before) "that unless you can say you went through what Jesus and God went through,then there is nothing to complain about or it isn't too difficult to handle" (not exact wording) .

So why destruction of self title? Well, it serves a couple purposes, Dan. Destruction is defined as : the state or fact of being destroyed. 2. The action or process of destroying something, 3 a destroying agency. (Merriam-Webster dictionary)

The purposes I think of is the breaking down/destroying back to a ground level to self. Also, this is a process not just a boom and done.

Like a weed, you can cut it down and so forth, but it always seems to come back. Me, myself,I , all self. So, destruction, what does it mean here ?

In one's eyes, the world is ending (figuratively)if something goes wrong or unexpected. "This wans't supposed to happen like this" "not what I signed up for" never thought I ____"

So, um, this has to stop Dan. This is where destruction starts. The me. Actually, not sure if it is rightly explained, the self is who we are; but the self is not what we were made for.

Um, Dan, you just got goosebumps and real uneasy there..... Yeah definitely. Wow um, this is really difficult at this second. This is a good start. Wow, time has passed and this still messes with me. This writing is kinda, no was started as therapy for me, hoped it would help others too, but it has been a bit since I have been hit this hard by writing.I'm actually at tears and breathing hard. Wow, the selfishness inside isn't wanting to face this. Well this is a start, as much as you don't want to say this or face it - self is a part of me, but it isn't the focus of me- to be explained in better detail tomorrow. No excuses Dan, cause I want to see exactly what you were affected like this for.

Oh God, help me write this Your way and not hold back. Be with the woman of my heart.guide her and guide me. The confusion is mind boggling. You are righteous but we are not. Your will be done, help the self step back so it is all for and by You; to easy to make it not, corruption prevails, yet You already won the war. We lose the battles. Please help, don't know why or what purpose but see us through, your way. May the tears not be overlooked and convict our hearts by the Word . In Jesus name, amen!

Night, good dreams. Blessings.