Dreams, they seem so real. Real enough that when you wake up, you think you are just continuing it or are in a dream when you wake.
Why God did I dream so vividly last night? Its so vivid that I can feel the dream when I woke and still do.
Dang it I miss and long for her so much!To just hear from her and know she is ok. To hug and hold. I beg for something, just not sure what it's supposed to be! Please God, have mercy on this wretched creature's heart. I beg to stop being this way, tryin to do what You say, I keep messing up. Like a rollercoaster; up and down and upside down.
Please be with her, guide and protect and heal that heart and mind.Maybe someday You will allow ...... Anyhow.
This world is not a home, nor are it's temporary joys and "good" feelings worth the destruction of our hearts and minds it does. Oh God , please I beg for something, I just aint sure what. I just have this longing for her, beyond belief this morning, every day.
Tryin to learn what You want, but it definitely isn't a walk in the park and is contrary to what is being taught and encouraged in this life.
Romans 7:24
24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 7:25
25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.
Romans 8:6
6 For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
Oh God help! What is the path and how much more will it hurt?
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