Seventh Day Slumber My Struggle

Must be some mistake
'Cause I'm not worth the price you paid.
With every passing hour
I convince myself that you saw something in me.
But I can hear them still,
As the whispers laced with hatred fill the room.
Guess I'm wasting my time
How could you love a man like me?

Lord I need your strength
'Cause I am weak and falling to my knees.
Who is on my side?
'Cause I can't tell my friends from enemies.
Filling up with pain.
Bitterness controls the air I breathe.
What am I fighting for?
Do you have a plan for me?

Must be some mistake
'Cause I'm not worth the price you paid.
With every passing hour,
I convince myself that you saw something in me.
But I can hear them still,
As the whispers laced with hatred fill the room.
Guess I'm wasting my time
How could you love a man like me?

Must be some mistake.
'Cause I'm not worth the price you paid. 

How I know I feel at times, how life feels at times, before you, I know.....for evertime I feel like this and others,  God, Father, You ,tell me.....

Seventh Day Slumber- Running Away

Followed my feet to nowhere again, wherever I go there I am
I'm stuck on this road and life just keeps passing me by
What can I do to get from beyond these walls that are laughing at me?
Sentenced to life and the prison is in my mind.

Chorus:
Losing my mind and pushed to the acts,
Someone stop me from running away.
Losing my mind and pushed to the acts,
Someone stop me from running away.

Followed my feet to nowhere again, think that I'm going insane.
Searching for peace by the outcome is always the same.
I wanna beleive that I'm here for something
More than just taking up space.
Running away cause I just can't deal with this pain...

(Chorus)

Here I am....

(Repeat chorus 2x)

(Losing my mind) Someone stop me from running away...
(Losing my mind) Someone stop me from running away...

Ah, now the story about the conclusion of the matter

Daniel 4- 
King Nebuchadnezzar and the prophecy fulfilled

Mainly,

At first, the king is praising God. Then He has this dream, it is interpreted and he is forewarned, even counseled how to possibly avoid it . 

(Dream of a great tree)

4: 24“This is the interpretation, O king, and this is the decree the Most High has issued against my lord the king: 25You will be driven away from people and will live with the wild animals; you will eat grass like cattle and be drenched with the dew of heaven. Seven times will pass by for you until you acknowledge that the Most High is sovereign over the kingdoms of men and gives them to anyone he wishes. 26The command to leave the stump of the tree with its roots means that your kingdom will be restored to you when you acknowledge that Heaven rules. 27Therefore, O king, be pleased to accept my advice: Renounce your sins by doing what is right, and your wickedness by being kind to the oppressed. It may be that then your  prosperity will continue.”

1 year later (12 months), and the king forgets or just gets caught up and still messes up. Has to pay the penalty, of being cast out and live like an animal for 7 times. 

4: 28All this happened to King Nebuchadnezzar.

At the end, the king acknowledges God and is more prosperous than before.

4: 37
Now I, Nebuchadnezzar, praise and exalt and glorify the King of heaven, because everything he does is right and all his ways are just. And those who walk in pride he is able to humble.

 Well, Dan, what you get from this ? Why did it happen? Well, it is pretty sweet to see that God even then, used a pagan to show His splendor and power. King Nebuchadnezzar was not a one god person, he served many or believed in them, since he said 4:18b "But you can, because the spirit of the holy gods is in you.” to Belteshazzar (Daniel's name changed when he went to Babylon). Also,God does all this through a pagan, (perhaps a sign of things to come, how God's salvation comes to all, not just the Jews.....Hindsight?)

Anyways, um, make it simple Dan, before you confuse yourself.

King Nebuchadnezzar- had a dream

dream=prophecy

12 months after dream happened it came as was prophesied

The king repented and Gave glory to GOD .

The king was restored and made greater than before.

Ok, so hm, what you think Dan? What's it all mean ?

Funny how though all this was foretold, King Nebuchadnezzar messed up. Not right away, either, so I can be doing what is right and then get caught up in something and well, boom, fall flat on the face.

Mess ups are gonna happen. Even it being foretold, I will stumble.

It won't be pretty nor does it last one day or something small, it can be pretty rough and humiliating (a king made to be like an animal?)

There is still salvation.

There is still forgiveness and a way  back to where we were before on the path of God

This sin/failure does Not have to be "the end of the world."

Repentance

God saves

Things can be better than before

This is the end of the matter......fear God and Keep His commands.....What are the commands?

Think Dan, it's right in front of you......time to recharge, Renew us Father..... Forgive me and open my eyes to your plan.....or well, help me just follow your decrees, I have enough trouble with that. Heal us, thank you for Your Love. 

break time

Dan, remember this:

God is God, you are not.

Stop asking questions, believe what is written

God loves you

The lost need help

Romans 8:28

Stick to what is said, not what is thought

Nothing on earth or under, or in, is or should be put higher than God.

With reverance and humility are those raised up

More than you is in the world, just like we learned that the planets revolve around the sun, so the world doesn't revolve around you , but around God.

Repent.....Repent.....

Pray, talk, write, revolve of life not on you or anyone person.

It's ok to be scared.

Self reflection is not self pity


Dan, above all Love others, not oneself.

Part 1 of the matter, the conclusion before the example

Ecclesiastes 12:  ¹³ Now all has been heard;
   here is the conclusion of the matter:
Fear God and keep his commandments,
   for this is the duty of all mankind.
¹⁴ For God will bring every deed into judgment,
   including every hidden thing,
   whether it is good or evil.

Be careful Dan, it is not just about being found out in this life. All things will be judged. Who will defend you?

What to give

Daniel 3 :

16Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, “O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend

ourselves before you in this matter. 17If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. 18But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”

19Then Nebuchadnezzar was furious with Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, and his attitude toward them changed......

26Nebuchadnezzar then approached the opening of the blazing furnace and shouted, “Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, servants of the Most High God, come

out! Come here!”

So Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego came out of the fire, 27and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them.

28Then Nebuchadnezzar said, “Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants! They trusted in him and defied the king’s command and were willing to give up their lives rather than serve or worship any god except their own God.

So, what is the amazing part?

This no Small thing, getting tossed in a furnace, no matter what the temperature, is not something people walk away from unsinged.

Yet we focus on the fire and what happened there, that we ignore or push aside what was demonstrated.

Basically, King Nebuchadnezzar was the greatest king of his time (read previous chapter)

As such, when he said something, it was to be done. Now why does this matter? Well, this is not a time of democracy, jury decides trial. Literally, you disobey, king having a bad day, and ding, there goes your head. Not funny, the truth.

So , what did those 3 do ? They picked God over the king. Not only that, they basically, from how the king reacts, slapped him in the face.

Now, what God did, saving from the fire was immensely understated. I mean amazing is not even a fraction what happened.Yet, I believe to God, that is and was nothing. Actually, to Him, and I'm just thinking, this is not fact based, but from how God took Enoch who walked with Him, gave David the honor of having Jesus as a descendant, just making David king and saying that David was a man after His heart and keeping David's line for all that time, well, the reward for these 3 (to live, to be used in a miracle, and after promoted) that was um, God was ecstatic to save them.

To God, I believe, this is all it comes down to: V.16 Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, “O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. 17If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. 18But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.” 

The center to these events. 

Don't overlook that, Dan, this is not about the action of them saved, it's the action of God being first, being the reason for living. In all things, no matter the outcome, whether God saves from it or allows it to come to pass,  it IS about GOD and HIS WAYS. No matter what. That is what I think, um, you know, just is one of the great motivators to HIM, when we can say “God, you can save me from it, but even if you don't, I won't do what goes against you.” Totally, just , wow, I can't think of the words.

Can I say that? DO I do that? Am I striving to do it? Hm, if God said, “ Do all this for me, I'm not gonna stop the “fire” from burning you and destroying you.” Would I do it? DO I do it?

I have to. Remember, Dan, this story. Do you have the faith, the reliance, the mindset of “ God, some painful things are gonna happen, I know you can save me from it, but even if you don't, I won't disobey You.” Whether I like it or not, or understand why.

Dan, this is just like Paul saying in Ph'p:1:21: For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

Oh, God HELP ME ! PLEASE! HELP US PLEASE! 

Open my eyes to Your Truth, please, I'm so lost, so much I have to learn. Thank you for being patient and merciful. You know my prayers and the reasons for my tears. Please carry through the fires, teach to disregard my life for Your purpose. Just know I'm scared of that, though. Scared of the scars to be gained and those I carry and so sorry for those I have given others. Heal it all, please. Through your Son, Amen.

Happy Thanksgiving (hope I got it right this time :P )

Colossians 3:17
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Just verses

Colossians 2:6-7

So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

Psalm 100:4-5

Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.

Peace.....:)

Forgive me for you who I have hurt

"Forgiven"(skillet, album -awake- 2009)

[V1]
Forgive me now cause I
Have been unfaithful
Don't ask me why cause I don't know

So many times I've tried
But was unable
But this heart belongs to you alone

[Chorus:]
Now I'm in our secret place
Alone in your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven
All the promises and lies
All the times I compromise
All the times you were denied
You have forgiven

[V2]
Forgive me I'm ashamed
I've loved another
I can't explain cause I don't know
No one can take your place
And there is no other
Forever yours and yours alone

[Chorus]
Now I'm in our secret place
Alone in your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven
All the promises and lies
All the times I compromise
All the times you were denied
You have forgiven
[Bridge]
Take me to our secret place
(We'll leave the world away)
I get down on my knees
Feel your love wash over me
There will never be another
You're the only one forever
And you know I'm yours alone

[Chorus]
 Now I'm in our secret place
Alone in your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven
All the promises and lies
All the times I compromise
All the times you were denied
You have forgiven

Forgive me, God for I have not put you first. Forgive me for it is you that this wretched man has hurt above all others. Shed your mercy and forgiveness on me and those that hurt from my sin. Only through you can my sins be forgiven and healing and growth begin. Shine on this wretched man the wonders of your love, that I may understand again the way of your light. I do not deserve it, nor do I earn it, NEVER EVER will I be worthy by any account other than by your love and grace. You tell me that if I confess to you, there is hope, if I truly repent, though I may stumble, you are there when I call, waiting for it. So I call out in fear, in reverence, in pain, and in sorrow, for my anger and disrespect, my sins, has become a cup of  wrath from you, and I deserve it.

 I lift up my soul, oh Father, I lay this weak body face on the floor, for I fear your righteous discipline, one finger of it, light as can be, would break this body and soul. I beg for your healing to those I hurt,  though this body of mine be ruined, and my heart be broken in infinite pieces,  please forgive me  and accept my repentence.
You love me and you only have the way. Mercy, grace, through your Son. I  lay my heart darkened by my sin before you. I'm at your mercy. Renew, cleanse, a miracle, please, again.

James 5:16a
Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.

1John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

Revelation 3:19a
 ¹⁹ Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline.

New Days

Matthew 3:17
And a voice from heaven said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.” 

 

Matthew 16:13-16

 

When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, "Who do people say the Son of Man is?" They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets." "But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?" Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God."

John 14:6
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

 

John 14:10

Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work.

test

Psalm 119:18
Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law.

Where Strength Begins by Phillips, Craig, & Dean

Philippians 3:12

Here I sit with this cup of life in front of me
I see it's full but I'm afraid to drink
Because I've tried and I've missed the mark
so many times
I can't forget all the hurt inside

But rising up from the ashes
of these memories
I reach for a hand to save me
And I hear Him Calling

Walk on
Til fear turns to faith and faith becomes sight
Where strength begins
You've got to press on
Move on through the pain
move on to the place
Where weakness ends
Where strength begins

Here I stand looking to the climb
that's up ahead
I will fall but I'll get up again
Because I know if I keep on walking
through the fire
I'll be a newer, stronger man of God and I'll

Rise up from the ashes of my memories
And I'll reach for His hand to save me
And I'll hear Him calling

Take up your cross
Get up and walk
Where strength begins

Rising up from the ashes of these memories
I reach for his hand to save me
And I hear Him calling
 --------------------------------------------------------
Hm,  I have many things to learn in life, isn't it great?!   How is it that strength begins when I feel weak? Cause real strength doesn't come from me.....
Thank God !
Lots going on here, if anyone reads this, I will try to setup a verse or something or get on to make a note, but no promises (electricity issues, don't always have access, busy time, and movement). Alas, Please, if you do read (hope you get encouraged and strengthened, or more)  , pray for mercy, protection, and a miracle for me. Thanks from the bottom of my heart & Peace be with you. God's will be done.
Peace.....:)

Hm,

Hm, wow, how can one cry in sorrow and joy at the same time? I don't know, but I have today, it is an important day, today to me.

I sometimes think, that I will have no more tears to shed, then they come. Why? NO clue, but i have before cried til no tears came, I do that still.

I have to believe, that Love is enough, God's Love is enough, to love and keep loving is able to heal within oneself and those around. The true nature though is not for oneself, but for others. Hence why God is love, not cause He created it, be cause HE IS it by what HE does.

How my heart longs for.... cries for....

God is Good, always. Thank you God for your love and that which you show through others, I pray I can show a kajilliionth,, if even that much, of your love to others.

Mercy and a miracle I ask and pray. Oh God you are the one and only !

Howdy Saturday I think

What do I say? Today has been a long day. Very long and very scary. I had a nightmare, not sure what happened but I found myself fighting a demon. I haven't had dream that vivid or real feeling in a long time. I woke up thinking I was fighting it. It freaked me out. I remember one thing also, Using God's name to get rid of it. I was in the dark in my dream and was in a room, all of a sudden some demon attacked me, not just some random thing, but like it was waiting for the opportunity to see me weak and pounce on me. I was fighting for my life and all of a sudden in my mind, I hear" Use God" . wow, how far can I be mislead ? That right there, woke me up I think. I woke up afraid, first I thought it was the dream, (was vivid), but then I realized, it has been the simple answer that I over think.
 Use God. That is very simple to say. "Use God. Use Him. He wants you to."
Yet it seems we use Him when it suits us. If not then of course it isn't my fault. (sarcasm)
"ah, thank God I can do this today, thank God I'm not like this" (read Luke 18:9-12)

Truly, God is the one of mercy, cause everyday He reminds me how I need Him and how messed up I really am. I have been spending lots of time, tryin to tell God what I think and not hearing what He is saying. I don't know everything, in fact, the things I do know, are tested each day. Both within myself and outside. Sin does not stop for no man and that in itself, is a reason/reminder that we need Him. For this reason, I say today, Wow, there really is no God but the God of heaven.
I think my heart has no more tears to shed today, it has been a long day in this sense. For many reasons. Each day though, thank God, I pray for mercy and a miracle, today was a miracle and out pouring of mercy, for easy He could just say "ok, enough is enough, I'm done with Dan, he just is a mess-up, he doesn't get it, he has to use me all the time"
No instead He says "lets remind Him who I AM, get him back on track, and let him remember to come to me whenever the tears, wailing,pain, joy, anger, fear, selfishness or lack of courage, anything comes his way or by his mistakes..... "

So, I continue to pray for mercy and a miracle for something in particular and lower my head and body to him.

Today though, I did and hope others do: Psalm 95:1-2

Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD;
 let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.
Let us come before him with thanksgiving
 and extol him with music and song.

God is good always, though I cannot see what is ahead, I can have confidence that through my mistakes , errors, stupidity, triumphs and failures, He will watch and help if I remember aka lower myself,  to "use God" in everything, always.
I pray for a miracle....for mercy.....for her who my heart loves.....


A.E.E. please.....chance

I made a mistake

Haha I made a mistake. Days run so close together, it isn't thanksgiving. Wow, am I off, dumb Dan.

Lets see if I can get this right.

Psalm 1:1-2

Blessed is the one
who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
or sit in the company of mockers,
but whose delight is in the law of the LORD,
and who meditates on his law day and night.

John 17:17

Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth.

I thonk self explanatory. Still, as simple to understand, it becomes hard to do. Stupid Dan , why can't you meditate all the time on the Word ? It has to be, for every hilltop there is a valley, just want to get a bridge and go hilltop to hill top. Alas, it is not so.

Much love, my heart goes out to her, Peace and strength.....

TURKEY TURKEY!

Happy Thanksgiving!

2 Corinthians 2:14
But thanks be to God, who always leads us as captives in Christ’s triumphal procession and uses us to spread the aroma of the knowledge of him everywhere.

2 Corinthians 9:15
Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!

 Ephesians 5:20

 always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Colossians 3:17
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Wednesday questions

Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.

James 3:10

Who will save me from the turmoil within me ? Can one admit that they do this ? Is there rest from it?

 

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 5:10 

 

Is righteousness ever changing? What does it mean to persecute? Saul when he looked out for Christians to get rid of, people making fun of Christianity, what else?

 

"Comfort, comfort my people," says your God.

Isaiah 40:1 

 What is comfort? What if the person doesn't want to be comforted ? 


hm, questions, answers I'm looking for, the journey is filled with ups and downs, yet the journey is worth it.
:) 

Hi

Hi Dan, this is your brain speaking. I just want you to know, it's not about you.

".....If you want to know why you were placed on this planet, you must begin with God. You were born by His purpose and for His purpose."
 (Rick Warren)

Oh, yeah your brain again, God doesn't need you, You need Him and He wants You !!!!! You were made with this in mind.

Hm, Hi brain, thanks for the reminder.....easy to forget in this world.....

You Are God Alone-Craig and Dean Phillips

HAHA, what am i forgetting? Thankfulness

What is hardest for me is I can be negative or come off as such, so think I did it before, some stuff I'm thankful for:

-All the close calls with death and hate, I'm still alive
- Again, God loves me like nothing in the world
-Almost done with um, this work here
-I can hurt, cause means that I care.
-Forgiveness
-each new day to start something new
-I don't have all the answers
-God's Word
- Ability to read, write, and talk
-got all my limbs
- Love
-Growth
-sleep
- that no one has to do it on there own
-that I need help
-that what i have, might not be a ton, it can help others
-Haha, a few months ago the heat was INSANE! So when i got up today at like hm, 3am, (no sleep, so much on mind, heart, tears, prayers, wow, too much to write, another day, haven't slept too well, and my um, small pillow is messed up, another time maybe) back to it, and dragged myself to get ready for physical training test (so glad passed Thank God!, Hallelujah, failed first one) I walked outside and people were complaining on how cold it was, wow, it felt exhilarating! Not cold, it was beautiful. So, thankful for the change of weather, the seasons.

Oh God, miracles are yours! Please, the heal all the stuff talked to you about, make a miracle! Please, you know the craziness of life.....
Help me to not try and change your will or way, but that the way I go changes to YOUR WILL and WAY !

wow, keep thinking of stuff, but really have to go now, partly cause I have to use the um, port o potty (haha no toilets, hm, I be thankful too when i get to use a real one....though they get cleaned everyday , lots of people here and well, enough said....) Haha, wow, i remember when they couldn't clean em everyday, wow, wow, I'm thankful they do it everyday so far . :)

anyways, well, dan, (and anyone who reads this if you are out there, I hope you are encouraged or something of the sort), think time to shut off the brain (and hit the latrine!) .

Peace.....:)


A.E.E. te quiero con todo mi corazon

A verse for today

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 5:10

I dunno what that all entails, used to think, you know, do good, good will come back right there. To have a goal of heaven, to see beyond the right now, that is really great.

Randomness:

Read a part of the Screwtape letters by C.S.Lewis, it talks early on on how the thing that gets us the most is what we see right in front of us, what we physically see, there is so much more deeper inside. I know, it has me,what i see outwardly, : wow, that game, have to do this right now, or that. I missed what i couldn't see, and hurt those I love. I can't take that back, but i pray for the chance to show I have learned and am still learning. That I have stuff i can help others with, but also I need help with. I'm glad I'm messed up, reminds how much I can't do it on my own. Hm, reminds me of someone I love and want to share this with, ah, miracle and faith, I ask for both God. Please. Your will be done.

I'm not sure

I love this one person, I mean she means more to me than life ! I don't know what to do, my whole being pumps blood infused with loving her. I would run through the abyss for her. I'm not good at showing it though. This weekend is gonna be crazy. I don't know it just will be.

I know one thing for sure, nothing is impossible with God. Everyday I pray for a miracle. Everyday I will.

I dunno, today  I ramble, well haha guess talking to myself. hm, that's why I write, Life is an amazing adventure.

What is it about life ? Why do we think we have all the answers? Each day I learn something new, something I didn't know before, I just pray I grow from it rather than not.

How do I show what I want to say ? My mind runs through with all these ideas and thoughts, mainly of her, how i want to explore the world and experience so much with her. I pray, always. Man, i need a break, the people here are stressing me out. I'm tryin to relax and it's like one thing keeps hitting. Took a physical  fitness test, wow, it went great, praise God, want to share it with her, yet it seems she wants nothing to do with me.

Not only that, but want to share something else, hm, something sacred to me. Maybe, maybe someday.
This world is not cool, each day I get to look at news and so much hurt, so much.

Wow, rambling, I dunno what to do, my internet ran out so I have even less time to write. plus the random 10 times electricity runs out. Guess have to get it out while i can.

I pray for wisdom, yes, wisdom. I pray for a miracle. I'm so I dunno, so something today. I have not stopped crying, nor has my heart stopped hurting. I know what God can do and has done. Why is it so hard to believe at times?

I'm at war within myself. Help me God to do the right thing !

peace be with you.....:)

HI Sunday!

Well, another day down. Another day closer to heaven at least.

1 Peter 3:18

For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.

There is hope in life though I know I don't always see it. At least one cared enough to die for me and you. 

When it gets rough and you feel unloved, remember one died for you. One important one who could have just  not have. 

To love is to give  your all though it may not be reciprocated. I pray for that strength. It is not easy or seeming fulfilling at the time. It is though in the long run and many times in the short, because I learn what love means, and how many ways it can be expressed. 

I believe that and hope to remember that, now and always.....I pray so. 

Peace.....:) My heart longs for.....

Just an encouraging verse I hope

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:28-31

Peace be with you today/night

Good day

It's Friday!

1 John 2:15-16
Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. For everything in the world--the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life--comes not from the Father but from the world.

Be safe, another day gone . CLOSER to something.

Be careful. Be vigilant. 

1 Peter 5:8

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

Have a safe day/night/weekend 

Peace.....:)

Nov 11

It's veteran's day (USA) . To all those who gave their lives and time and sanity, for something they believed in.

Hm, light and dark , seen and unseen

Haha Almost forgot today. So much going on and more on the way. So Dan, what are you thinking? I'm thinking of one verse :

There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. What you have said in the dark will be heard in the daylight, and what you have whispered in the ear in the inner rooms will be proclaimed from the roofs.

Luke 12:2-3

1 Corinthians 4:5
Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God.

I think it is no wonder it is easier to fall asleep in the dark.In the dark, you can't see what is around you and it in itself, is a false sense of security. It sort of calms you down. It hides you. Either what I do is not fully seen or not seen at all. This is the great lie. Just cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't happening.

Now the light, that is another story, it's bright, shows whatever is in it's beam. It calls for concern, because in the beam, all is seen, even if looking from the dark, think of a light house, that beam is seen for miles, yet on the ocean, sometimes at night you can't even see what is in front of you.
Ephesians 5:13
"But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light."

Alas, this is a reflection of us, outwardly, what people can see, we can put on a good face. Yet inwardly, in our hearts and mind, we can have a putrid, decaying heart.
Yes sounds rough or strong, but I have seen it in myself and others, and it is a real problem in lives not just my own.
Are we ready to be exposed? Truly exposed? Our hearts to be laid bare, for either in this life or the next it will be laid bare.
For myself, Dan, you need to not cover the decay, but fully accept it is there and truly face it. Not alone, for it can eat you alive, and not half heartedly or your own plan, because it will not work right nor be truly healed. Only God and His way can heal and renew me.
hehe,I think of G I Joe "knowing is half the battle" , yes so I know, now I have to face it and expose it, before it is too late and the death I go through is too late.

This is a saddening note today Dan, hm, sobering, especially now. I'm not perfect, no, I'm far from it. God,  you can only heal me and others, please do.

Peace.....:)

Stop and listen 2

OK short note.....Not sure what else to say, zip the lip and cut the quick wit. Well that's for me at least. Take my time and think, how hard it is for me. It's crazy, how the hardest thing to do , is to not do something. Like  telling a kid- hey don't stick your hand on the stove......- then that is what he wants to do right away. That's how it feels when I think of this.....hm, keep on thinking I guess

Peace.....:)

I think of the prodigal son as an inspiration to the song by Phillips, Craig, & Dean

Verse 1:
Almighty God, The Great I Am,
Immovable Rock, Omnipotent, Powerful,
Awesome Lord.
Victorious Warrior, Commanding King of Kings,
Mighty Conqueror and the only time,
The only time I ever saw him run,
Was when...

Chorus:
He ran to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to His chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice He said
"Son, do you know I still love You?"
(End Chorus)

He caught me By surprise, When God ran...

Verse 2:
The day I left home,
I knew I'd broken His heart.
And I wondered then, if things could ever be the same.
Then one night,
I remembered His love for me.
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see,
It was the only time,
It was the only time I ever saw Him run.
And then...

Repeat Chorus

He caught me by surprise.
And He brought me to my knees.
When God ran... I saw Him run to me.

Bridge:
I was so ashamed, all alone, and so far away.
But now I know, that He's been waiting for this day...

I saw Him run to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
I felt his love for me again.
He ran to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to his chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son"
He called me Son.
He said "Son, do you know I still love You?"
He ran to me (When God Ran)
(I saw Him run to me)
And then I ran to Him
(When God ran)
When God ran

Note:
Background vocals in parentheses.

Let Him run.....to you

Stop.....and listen......

What a day, beautiful weather, yet another day closer to leaving.
Who is right ? In battles how do we find out who is right or wrong ? If I fight does it mean I'm being violent?

Hm, that is a question too blurred by what is taught. Violence and fighting seem to be one and the same.
It isn't. I fight everyday, but violence is not a part of it. Don't get me wrong, it sometimes feels as if I would rather take a bite at someone with words or some other avenue, than keep my mouth shut.  Or to easily just take all the blame and put it on someone else and not even acknowledge that maybe I made a mistake or have made mistakes .
The hardest fight is the one within us. I wondered many times what James meant in James 1-
 ¹⁹ My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, ²⁰ because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.

Yeah, that's been me, totally messed up in this respect.  My mind just hears some of things said and it just starts thinking on it before it's all done. I think at this present time, people think I'm a little um, "slower" than I may be, mainly since I take time alot more or have to ask, "what did you say again?"  or I just stand there thinking, and then answer....most of the time, I still have times i just quip back and then it's just worse cause I'm off base and well, you get the picture......:)
Trust me, I don't want to slow down, I want to just say what i think, but that is the problem isn't it? Just saying what is thought. How many people just say something only to wish they hadn't or say something and it is totally off base or not even on topic? I've done it too many times, and then I confuse myself and get angry with my self and it comes out at someone.


Haha, it's funny looking at it afterwards. I can just see myself looking like a doofus, "um, duh, use smaller, slower words" :)
What is not funny is the pain it causes, to not be quick to listen or slow to speak or get angry, no, that is not funny. I lament that everyday of my life.

So, I'm getting off base, mainly, meant to keep on tlaking about fighting and violence, but fighting is hard enough and violence seems to be the uncontrolled step past fighting.

In the words of Mr. Han(the Karate kid 2010) : Being still and doing nothing are two very different things.


Wow, I'm really not keeping on one topic trail huh ? Ok, let hm, what am I thinking? Hm, fighting starts within me, and it isn't the same as being violent. The battle usually starts with if I actually listen or jump to conclusions. I can see how it is totally against society, nowadays, everthing is quick or how I feel is fine, just do it. 
To listen and slow to speak are like the antithesis of all there is now. Hm, i need a break and gather my thoughts, but I will back to this not the next post but the one after.

Be safe, any ideas or comments?

Happy Sunday

 

These are pretty entertaining .....:)

ANTSY

Today was a day. Lots going on, getting ready to head back to the states. Excited and sad at the same time. Hoping and praying all goes well and someone in particular shows up. Can't believe been here this long. Ready for some taco bell and not having to walk around in uniform all the time.

Oh, early morning for me. Have a test, no thanks. Eh, no like running. :(

Good stuff:

Another day closer to go back
Beautiful day
Got multiple things done
Praying was good
Listened to some good music while working
God is Good and kept us safe, been scared numerous times, but alive still

Ok, tired, need rest.



Hebrews 10: 35 So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 36 You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. 37 For,
“In just a little while,
he who is coming will come
and will not delay.”
38 And,
“But my righteous  one will live by faith.
And I take no pleasure
in the one who shrinks back.”[
39 But we do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed, but to those who have faith and are saved.

Have a great day..... :)

Hello FRIDAY!

There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.

Proverbs 16:25



Hm, be careful on the weekend, cause I just think of people getting drunk and driving, or trying to act all tough and doing stupid stuff. Flying down the highway on motorcycles, starting fights, etc. 


One act can lead to some serious saddness. 


Just be careful this weekend , hehe, for us here we have to be careful everyday......


BE safe.....:)

What I

Well, what is my answer ot the verse of yesterday ?

What do I put my belief in the answer to?

I use the Holy Bible. That has the answers in it.
I believe it was inspired by God and is His words.
In it or by it I test what is said.

Most people say "well, is it the King James one, the NIV one, The NASV, or which one ?
Um, I use whichever I have in my hand, though I have had some trouble understanding King James at times.

Not only that, but i go back to the um, hebrew or greek to see the meaning of words, since though words are similar, each tense or portrayal can be a big difference.

Why though ? By that standard I have something to test myself and what others say. It doesn't change. It still says the same thing as it first did .

It is hard though because really, if I use the Bible I'm already standing for something, a no-no in thsi world where anything is ok as long as it doesn't necessarily hurt someone else's feelings.

I'm gonna mess up by what it says and I'm gonna hurt others feelings. I'm gonna make people mad and I just have to face that.


Wow, ok, so that is my answer, I test myself and what others say by the Bible.

It hurts me cause at one time or /and another I'm gonna be um, darn, what is the word.....rebuked by the same words I go by. Yay for forgiveness and not being about my own righteousness.

People won't agree with me, that stinks too. But in reality I cna be um, not so much personally hurt cause it isn't that they are not agreeing with me, but that they are not agreeing with God.

All I know is that through all things, if i stick to what is said, it comes out  better than I could imagine. DO I think so at the time, honestly, no, I cry and pout and lose my head, but if I get back to doing what God says in the Word, then it works out.

Well, that's my answer. Hope you have a good day. Be safe.

Just a verse

Dear friends, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.

1 John 4:1

Hm, we have to think before we go along with what people say.
I think of some of the religions and I actually was looking up one today, the "heaven's gate" group.
There is of course Islam, yet that is being so used now, we forget how there isn't just a false prophet out there, there are many, like this group which was in the news, basically, the main group committed suicide with the belief that they were doing the right side. instead of taking many lives each took their own life through poisoning/ asphyxiation.
It's scary cause they didn't start that way, but it goes to show that testing isn't just a one time thing , also, in order to test, we have to have something to test against..... This is the biggest part, before we test we have to know what the answers are. What is your answer you test things against ? Is it emotions, is it feelings, is it a book, is it  on faith, is it ever changing, it is a quick decison/flip of a coin ?

I believe there is an answer......what is it for me ? ask away if you want to know, or wait til later......:)

Too True

Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Nothing without you lyrics

Heard this song, thought it gave perspective, Life gets away from me and I forget the fundamentals. I thank God for bring them back to mind. I pray for forgiveness and another chance. God is great and well, thank you for your mercy and forgiveness and grace and patience to get back on track. Here are the words :

Bebo Norman Nothing Without you Lyrics:
Take these hands and lift them up
For I have not the strength to
praise You near enough
For I have nothing, I have
nothing without You

Take my voice and pour it out
Let it sing the songs of
mercy I have found
For I have nothing, I have
nothing without You

Chorus:
All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing without You


Take my body and build it up
May it be broken as an offering of love
For I have nothing, I have
nothing without You

All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing
But I love You

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
With all the strength that I can find

Take my time here on this earth
And let it glorify all that You are worth
For I am nothing,
I am nothing without You

-----Have a great one -----

Squawk Squawk - Humility

Today, oh today. I wonder, how many people it takes to do things sometimes. We waited 2hrs for someone to show up to say things we packed were able to be packed away. so we packed things up, then unpacked them, then put them to the side, just so we could pack them up again.  yes, >5.5 hrs later, we were done. Yup, it was a fiasco.. a couple bags took 5.5 hrs to go through.
Why though ? No one wants to step up . We follow the one in front of us. A lot simpler it could have been yet no one wanted to take the lead. Very frustrating, working on something and a bunch of people neither helping but just complaining and making fun of others.

Then I realized I do that also. Hm, brings to mind where Jesus talks about the speck in someone else's eye but a plank in one's own eye.

Matthew 7:3-5
“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

So it is with a heavy heart I say, I sin. the only good thing about me is the most important, that is, God created me. The only praiseworthy thing is that He loves me and all  people and want to have a relationship with them.
It is not without a price, Life. Except it was one life for all lives.


So, before I walk out the door or do anything, I have to remember,  I'm not any better nor some spectacular thing. I'm just like the next person, scared about something, make mistakes, not nearly close to perfect.
Maybe these pictures help more.

So, as for myself, I need to work on this and pray and study how to do these things more. Yet hopefully it is a good reminder to others that, we are all here, no one person has all the answers, I believe only God has the answers.

Well, here's to a fabulous day and night. God bless and kep you safe.